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Oh forgot, @cacodayum posted caps too, by the way. Before I did. Blocked me from commenting. After lying they guilted me with dollar amounts and “I can’t go on expecting so much”. Except, receipts “She’s angry”. Gee you know what you should do? Post names playing victim and block her from replying

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cacodayum NG
@cacodayum.bsky.s... • 11h
Whew. Guess I gotta post this publicly since I've got like 17 notifications of posts accusing me of being terrible.
That was my whole reply. I wasn't trying to guilt, dismiss the struggles, or like-anything of the sort. I dunno how it came off like that, but even after letting em know, more anger.
lumpenpoledancer @daturabombs333.bsky.social
Sorry got confused you meant earlier today. And was worried I couldn't see the transaction
Was super worried
its gonna be all i can manage. try to find somewhere to shack up. pepper spray etc... i dunno what else to tell you. cant go on expecting so much. hard af times for everybody, prices insane... wish i had a solution.
Today at 2:51 AM
"Can't go on expecting so much"?
And I would not make it outside here period. The crime is high and I can barely walk some days. Making even using the bathroom difficult. This is also right next to the moth dangerous part of the city, and cops reguekey shoo people out and take down tents in better parts of the city
There aren't other options
Not until something comes through
lumpenpoledancer@daturabombs333.bsky.social · 12h ago

@cacodayum.bsky.social told me too “just get pepper spray” presumably to live on the streets. Also to “shack up”. To a disabled femme. Vulnerable to violence and abuse. blowing me up because I couldn’t stretch 3 days worth of hotel nightly - all month. Then guilted me for “expecting too much”.

Hey
Hit that kofi again.
Monday at 9:01PM
Ty so much it's very appreciated
you welcome. best luckvto ya
Thursday at 4:23 AM
Never fucking ends
Thursday at 11:49 AM
Hey Jess. I know.
Check that ko-fi in a few ok?
Yesterday at 5:17 AM
Hey, just seeing this now and Ty!
Yesterday at 7:54 AM
Yeah, welcome! Hope it helps
Yesterday at 1:12 PM
Did that $210 not help with the things mentioned in your post from an hour

Goal 799 - 1, 000 Disabled + unhoused Lost 50% of usual help overnight for week +. Trying to raise funds to avoid dangerous East Oakland streets asap. Cannot risk sex trafficting + violence. No EBT atm. Being harsssed for it. Pls help Kofi - Pinned PayPal: nachash358 cash app: doriangrey358

Lumpenpoledancer dressed as a witch. Lined eyes with black. Mini heart collar. Velvet hat. Fishnet shirt.

Oh forgot, @cacodayum posted caps too, by the way. Before I did. Blocked me from commenting. After lying they guilted me with dollar amounts and “I can’t go on expecting so much”. Except, receipts “She’s angry”. Gee you know what you should do? Post names playing victim and block her from replying

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cacodayum NG
@cacodayum.bsky.s... • 11h
Whew. Guess I gotta post this publicly since I've got like 17 notifications of posts accusing me of being terrible.
That was my whole reply. I wasn't trying to guilt, dismiss the struggles, or like-anything of the sort. I dunno how it came off like that, but even after letting em know, more anger.
lumpenpoledancer @daturabombs333.bsky.social
Sorry got confused you meant earlier today. And was worried I couldn't see the transaction
Was super worried
its gonna be all i can manage. try to find somewhere to shack up. pepper spray etc... i dunno what else to tell you. cant go on expecting so much. hard af times for everybody, prices insane... wish i had a solution.
Today at 2:51 AM
"Can't go on expecting so much"?
And I would not make it outside here period. The crime is high and I can barely walk some days. Making even using the bathroom difficult. This is also right next to the moth dangerous part of the city, and cops reguekey shoo people out and take down tents in better parts of the city
There aren't other options
Not until something comes through
lumpenpoledancer@daturabombs333.bsky.social · 12h ago

@cacodayum.bsky.social told me too “just get pepper spray” presumably to live on the streets. Also to “shack up”. To a disabled femme. Vulnerable to violence and abuse. blowing me up because I couldn’t stretch 3 days worth of hotel nightly - all month. Then guilted me for “expecting too much”.

Hey
Hit that kofi again.
Monday at 9:01PM
Ty so much it's very appreciated
you welcome. best luckvto ya
Thursday at 4:23 AM
Never fucking ends
Thursday at 11:49 AM
Hey Jess. I know.
Check that ko-fi in a few ok?
Yesterday at 5:17 AM
Hey, just seeing this now and Ty!
Yesterday at 7:54 AM
Yeah, welcome! Hope it helps
Yesterday at 1:12 PM
Did that $210 not help with the things mentioned in your post from an hour

Last thing: After confronted with lying to me with receipts, I got “sorry but”. “Seemed like a normal thing to do” and “just wanted to throw our alternatives”. Ie: telling me to stop asking for help and get pepper spray to live on streets. “Didn’t feel right” like they did me a “favor”

That's fine. Yeah the last donations were most I could manage. Be tied up paying it all off til January now, is why I said.
I know your reasoning, but it don't feel right to not at least throw ideas out there.
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cacodayum
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@cacodayum.bsky... • 33m
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Yeah, but I just wanted to throw out some possible alternatives since it seems like its not going well and I'm not gonna be able to contribute. It seemed like a pretty normal thing to say. Sorry.
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lumpenpoledancer@daturabombs333.bsky.social · 12h ago

@cacodayum.bsky.social told me too “just get pepper spray” presumably to live on the streets. Also to “shack up”. To a disabled femme. Vulnerable to violence and abuse. blowing me up because I couldn’t stretch 3 days worth of hotel nightly - all month. Then guilted me for “expecting too much”.

Hey
Hit that kofi again.
Monday at 9:01PM
Ty so much it's very appreciated
you welcome. best luckvto ya
Thursday at 4:23 AM
Never fucking ends
Thursday at 11:49 AM
Hey Jess. I know.
Check that ko-fi in a few ok?
Yesterday at 5:17 AM
Hey, just seeing this now and Ty!
Yesterday at 7:54 AM
Yeah, welcome! Hope it helps
Yesterday at 1:12 PM
Did that $210 not help with the things mentioned in your post from an hour

Caretaker got essentials like plastic wear . Ubering for meds soon. Need an over the counter med. Just got food for both caretaker and I. I can show receipts if needed or wanted. Will calculate anything received tonight for the total. Back to grinding - inspite of being through hell and back

lumpenpoledancer@daturabombs333.bsky.social · 18h ago

Goal 799 - 1, 000 Disabled + unhoused Lost 50% of usual help overnight for week +. Trying to raise funds to avoid dangerous East Oakland streets asap. Cannot risk sex trafficting + violence. No EBT atm. Being harsssed for it. Pls help Kofi - Pinned PayPal: nachash358 cash app: doriangrey358

Lumpenpoledancer dressed as a witch. Lined eyes with black. Mini heart collar. Velvet hat. Fishnet shirt.

Haven’t checked if anything new came in, but soon have to uber out for meds. Will sometime after. Been sick Please help if you can. I also lost a regular because he’s angry he could not solely play captain “save a ho”. Idk. He as pretty mean about it. I’ll now have to recoup that amount regurley.

lumpenpoledancer@daturabombs333.bsky.social · 18h ago

Goal 799 - 1, 000 Disabled + unhoused Lost 50% of usual help overnight for week +. Trying to raise funds to avoid dangerous East Oakland streets asap. Cannot risk sex trafficting + violence. No EBT atm. Being harsssed for it. Pls help Kofi - Pinned PayPal: nachash358 cash app: doriangrey358

Lumpenpoledancer dressed as a witch. Lined eyes with black. Mini heart collar. Velvet hat. Fishnet shirt.

Haven’t checked if anything new came in, but soon have to uber out for meds. Will sometime after. Been sick Please help if you can. I also lost a regular because he’s angry he could not solely play captain “save a ho”. Idk. He as pretty mean about it. I’ll now have to recoup that amount regurley.

lumpenpoledancer@daturabombs333.bsky.social · 18h ago

Goal 799 - 1, 000 Disabled + unhoused Lost 50% of usual help overnight for week +. Trying to raise funds to avoid dangerous East Oakland streets asap. Cannot risk sex trafficting + violence. No EBT atm. Being harsssed for it. Pls help Kofi - Pinned PayPal: nachash358 cash app: doriangrey358

Lumpenpoledancer dressed as a witch. Lined eyes with black. Mini heart collar. Velvet hat. Fishnet shirt.

Literally lying. He literally said I was “expecting too much”. The “options” weren’t even social programs or roommates - taxed out but would have been well meaning. But “pepper spray” and “shack up”. Unasked for. Meanwhile, he’s offering more help to people on his feed too.

cacodayum
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@cacodayum.bsky.s... • 1h
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Never guilted, never said it was too much.
Just suggested looking into other options cause the current method seems to be not working well at all.its gonna be all i can manage. try to find

somewhere to shack up. pepper spray

etc... i dunno what else to tell you. cant

go on expecting so much. hard af times

for everybody, prices insane... wish i
had a solution.
lumpenpoledancer@daturabombs333.bsky.social · 12h ago

@cacodayum.bsky.social told me too “just get pepper spray” presumably to live on the streets. Also to “shack up”. To a disabled femme. Vulnerable to violence and abuse. blowing me up because I couldn’t stretch 3 days worth of hotel nightly - all month. Then guilted me for “expecting too much”.

Hey
Hit that kofi again.
Monday at 9:01PM
Ty so much it's very appreciated
you welcome. best luckvto ya
Thursday at 4:23 AM
Never fucking ends
Thursday at 11:49 AM
Hey Jess. I know.
Check that ko-fi in a few ok?
Yesterday at 5:17 AM
Hey, just seeing this now and Ty!
Yesterday at 7:54 AM
Yeah, welcome! Hope it helps
Yesterday at 1:12 PM
Did that $210 not help with the things mentioned in your post from an hour

@cacodayum.bsky.social blew up for hours while I was sick, to guilt me, give me unasked advice, and tell me to stop asking for MA at all. Out of nowhere. Now they’re lying and playing victim. I’ve never claimed this was “forever”. Have repeated said I’m waiting out programs and disability starting

BildI am going to TRY and survive. That means staying safe as a disabled femme. Even if I don't make it - 1 might not. But That means not being guilted and stopping because other people don't like it. I'm not demanding ANYONE give me money. I am literally just asking people for help.
Yes. I'm wildly pissed right now and expected better out of you. And you know damn well you didn't just "suggest options"
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lumpenpoledancer
I really hope I took that the wrong way
yes you took it the wrong way. then sent several dozen angry replies to dead air while i was out, asleep and then, at work.
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cacodayum NG
its gonna be all i can manage. try to find somewhere to shack up. pepper spray etc....
Suggesting calmly and concernedly that you look into other options because this surely can't keep working like this indefinitely.
Message
now.
accuse me of lying. There's
lumpenpoledancer@daturabombs333.bsky.social · 12h ago

@cacodayum.bsky.social told me too “just get pepper spray” presumably to live on the streets. Also to “shack up”. To a disabled femme. Vulnerable to violence and abuse. blowing me up because I couldn’t stretch 3 days worth of hotel nightly - all month. Then guilted me for “expecting too much”.

Hey
Hit that kofi again.
Monday at 9:01PM
Ty so much it's very appreciated
you welcome. best luckvto ya
Thursday at 4:23 AM
Never fucking ends
Thursday at 11:49 AM
Hey Jess. I know.
Check that ko-fi in a few ok?
Yesterday at 5:17 AM
Hey, just seeing this now and Ty!
Yesterday at 7:54 AM
Yeah, welcome! Hope it helps
Yesterday at 1:12 PM
Did that $210 not help with the things mentioned in your post from an hour

Please don’t forget I still need to fundraise too - inspite of the “drama” on my feed. I’ll update goal later tonight. Need to rest a bit or get meds asap. Don’t know which first. Hopefully we can make some progress. And inspite of the weirdo now dropping out of funding -because I’m too homeless

bfitzinAR@bfitzinar.bsky.social · 11h ago

~$900 WEEK'S ROOM RENT + FOOD, MEDS, HYGIENE URGENT! Disabled. Chronically ill. Currently sick. Fled DV & currently homeless w/ disabled caregiver. Except caregiver won't be available as much this week. 90 ppl $10 each keeps them safe. Pls RS/QS. Pls do what you can. #HelpFolksLive2026

While I’m not on International (“The Blade”), I’m just blocks away from it. When I say it’s “rough”, this what I mean. No way I’m surviving with just “pepperspray” to protect from rampant violence and human trafficking. Not a disabled femme with a bad leg. Why I plead: help keep me off streets

Which streets are considered "The Blade" in Oakland?
Al Overview
"The Blade" in Oakland refers to a stretch along International Boulevard in East Oakland, specifically targeting side streets like Ninth, 10th, and 11th Avenues where they intersect the main corridor.
The Oaklandside +3
Key Details
• Main Corridor: International Boulevard is the primary thoroughfare associated with the area.
• Side Streets Involved: Ninth, 10th, and 11th Avenues (between International Boulevard and East 15th Street) are focal points where the city approved temporary traffic barriers to disrupt illegal activity.
• Context: The multi-block strip has a long history as a prominent location for street-level sex work and human trafficking.
lumpenpoledancer@daturabombs333.bsky.social · 12h ago

@cacodayum.bsky.social told me too “just get pepper spray” presumably to live on the streets. Also to “shack up”. To a disabled femme. Vulnerable to violence and abuse. blowing me up because I couldn’t stretch 3 days worth of hotel nightly - all month. Then guilted me for “expecting too much”.

Hey
Hit that kofi again.
Monday at 9:01PM
Ty so much it's very appreciated
you welcome. best luckvto ya
Thursday at 4:23 AM
Never fucking ends
Thursday at 11:49 AM
Hey Jess. I know.
Check that ko-fi in a few ok?
Yesterday at 5:17 AM
Hey, just seeing this now and Ty!
Yesterday at 7:54 AM
Yeah, welcome! Hope it helps
Yesterday at 1:12 PM
Did that $210 not help with the things mentioned in your post from an hour

To have a “leftist” cis het male, who’s able bodied tell a disabled basically give up on aid until programs and disability come through - including shelter. To basically live on the streets with “proper spray”, or give my body safety is not OK. “It’s not going well” - not an excuse.

lumpenpoledancer@daturabombs333.bsky.social · 12h ago

@cacodayum.bsky.social told me too “just get pepper spray” presumably to live on the streets. Also to “shack up”. To a disabled femme. Vulnerable to violence and abuse. blowing me up because I couldn’t stretch 3 days worth of hotel nightly - all month. Then guilted me for “expecting too much”.

Hey
Hit that kofi again.
Monday at 9:01PM
Ty so much it's very appreciated
you welcome. best luckvto ya
Thursday at 4:23 AM
Never fucking ends
Thursday at 11:49 AM
Hey Jess. I know.
Check that ko-fi in a few ok?
Yesterday at 5:17 AM
Hey, just seeing this now and Ty!
Yesterday at 7:54 AM
Yeah, welcome! Hope it helps
Yesterday at 1:12 PM
Did that $210 not help with the things mentioned in your post from an hour

As a disabled femme I’m also more susceptible to sexual violence and abuse. This isn’t exaggeration: look at the statistics. To tell me to “shack up” for safety and housing? Put me at risk of even more abuse. I’ve already suffered. I just got out of an abusive household. This is dangerous “advice”

lumpenpoledancer@daturabombs333.bsky.social · 12h ago

@cacodayum.bsky.social told me too “just get pepper spray” presumably to live on the streets. Also to “shack up”. To a disabled femme. Vulnerable to violence and abuse. blowing me up because I couldn’t stretch 3 days worth of hotel nightly - all month. Then guilted me for “expecting too much”.

Hey
Hit that kofi again.
Monday at 9:01PM
Ty so much it's very appreciated
you welcome. best luckvto ya
Thursday at 4:23 AM
Never fucking ends
Thursday at 11:49 AM
Hey Jess. I know.
Check that ko-fi in a few ok?
Yesterday at 5:17 AM
Hey, just seeing this now and Ty!
Yesterday at 7:54 AM
Yeah, welcome! Hope it helps
Yesterday at 1:12 PM
Did that $210 not help with the things mentioned in your post from an hour

“Just get pepper spray”. I live in East Oakland. Disabled femme. Sex trafficting is rampant. So is violence. People shot in broad daylight. Robberies. Caretaker has been attacked several times - but can fight. I can’t though. They can’t always protect me. They know this. Still told me to do this.

lumpenpoledancer@daturabombs333.bsky.social · 12h ago

@cacodayum.bsky.social told me too “just get pepper spray” presumably to live on the streets. Also to “shack up”. To a disabled femme. Vulnerable to violence and abuse. blowing me up because I couldn’t stretch 3 days worth of hotel nightly - all month. Then guilted me for “expecting too much”.

Hey
Hit that kofi again.
Monday at 9:01PM
Ty so much it's very appreciated
you welcome. best luckvto ya
Thursday at 4:23 AM
Never fucking ends
Thursday at 11:49 AM
Hey Jess. I know.
Check that ko-fi in a few ok?
Yesterday at 5:17 AM
Hey, just seeing this now and Ty!
Yesterday at 7:54 AM
Yeah, welcome! Hope it helps
Yesterday at 1:12 PM
Did that $210 not help with the things mentioned in your post from an hour

Posting rest of my abusive interactions with @cacodayum.bsky.social later. This is how they treated a disabled female - and felt entitled to it. I did not deserve this. Did not ask for more. Let alone anything. Hardly judgement, and bad advice. Not to be told to stop seeking MA.

lumpenpoledancer@daturabombs333.bsky.social · 12h ago

@cacodayum.bsky.social told me too “just get pepper spray” presumably to live on the streets. Also to “shack up”. To a disabled femme. Vulnerable to violence and abuse. blowing me up because I couldn’t stretch 3 days worth of hotel nightly - all month. Then guilted me for “expecting too much”.

Hey
Hit that kofi again.
Monday at 9:01PM
Ty so much it's very appreciated
you welcome. best luckvto ya
Thursday at 4:23 AM
Never fucking ends
Thursday at 11:49 AM
Hey Jess. I know.
Check that ko-fi in a few ok?
Yesterday at 5:17 AM
Hey, just seeing this now and Ty!
Yesterday at 7:54 AM
Yeah, welcome! Hope it helps
Yesterday at 1:12 PM
Did that $210 not help with the things mentioned in your post from an hour

Goal 799 - 1,035 Do not piss on my leg, and tell me it’s raining. Livid. Desperately need to rest, to uber out and get my meds. Not deal with disrespect and be scolded more. I’m struggling ENOUGH as is. I deal with a lot of mistreatment just asking for help. Help make it worth it: surviving

lumpenpoledancer@daturabombs333.bsky.social · 18h ago

Goal 799 - 1, 000 Disabled + unhoused Lost 50% of usual help overnight for week +. Trying to raise funds to avoid dangerous East Oakland streets asap. Cannot risk sex trafficting + violence. No EBT atm. Being harsssed for it. Pls help Kofi - Pinned PayPal: nachash358 cash app: doriangrey358

Lumpenpoledancer dressed as a witch. Lined eyes with black. Mini heart collar. Velvet hat. Fishnet shirt.

799 - 1, 300 (covering hotel increase - sorry forgot) Almost fainted several times in shower. But HAVE to get meds inspite of horrible night. Please, a few dollars ito bring me closer to goal will be appreciated. I have to uber and also pick up essentials. Can show receipts. Pls help cover?

lumpenpoledancer@daturabombs333.bsky.social · 18h ago

Goal 799 - 1, 000 Disabled + unhoused Lost 50% of usual help overnight for week +. Trying to raise funds to avoid dangerous East Oakland streets asap. Cannot risk sex trafficting + violence. No EBT atm. Being harsssed for it. Pls help Kofi - Pinned PayPal: nachash358 cash app: doriangrey358

Lumpenpoledancer dressed as a witch. Lined eyes with black. Mini heart collar. Velvet hat. Fishnet shirt.

799/1,035 Finally going to shower now after HORRIBLE night being sick and told I’m asking too much: safety. Have to pick up meds tomorrow. Can’t put off longer without withdrawals. Also need over the counter meds and more. Wil be ubering. Please consider 20 for that if nothing else.

lumpenpoledancer@daturabombs333.bsky.social · 18h ago

Goal 799 - 1, 000 Disabled + unhoused Lost 50% of usual help overnight for week +. Trying to raise funds to avoid dangerous East Oakland streets asap. Cannot risk sex trafficting + violence. No EBT atm. Being harsssed for it. Pls help Kofi - Pinned PayPal: nachash358 cash app: doriangrey358

Lumpenpoledancer dressed as a witch. Lined eyes with black. Mini heart collar. Velvet hat. Fishnet shirt.

People should be able to seek mutual aid without being guilted that “others are struggling too.” No one’s arguing otherwise - especially not those asking for help. Asking is already hard. We do it when we’re out of options. Should we just suffer and die to protect those feelings?

FYI: this is amount I’ve made since it became an energy. I’ve gotten the room 3 times since, and had to eat since. Had essentials since. Had errends since. Can show receipts and transactions Anything possibly extra goes towards future funds/paying off cashapp. Not spending or anything of the like.

lumpenpoledancer@daturabombs333.bsky.social · 18h ago

Goal 799 - 1, 000 Disabled + unhoused Lost 50% of usual help overnight for week +. Trying to raise funds to avoid dangerous East Oakland streets asap. Cannot risk sex trafficting + violence. No EBT atm. Being harsssed for it. Pls help Kofi - Pinned PayPal: nachash358 cash app: doriangrey358

Lumpenpoledancer dressed as a witch. Lined eyes with black. Mini heart collar. Velvet hat. Fishnet shirt.

People should be able to seek mutual aid without being guilted that “others are struggling too.” No one’s arguing otherwise - especially not those asking for help. Asking is already hard. We do it when we’re out of options. Should we just suffer and die to protect those feelings?

This is the like 5th night in a row some nothing awful has happened. PLs let me get a break and help if possible. For final time: I had to ask for more this week due to caretakers best friend bowing out this week. 50% of help. I’m not “expecting” this much. Room is 95 a DAY. NO EBT THIS WEEK.

lumpenpoledancer@daturabombs333.bsky.social · 18h ago

Goal 799 - 1, 000 Disabled + unhoused Lost 50% of usual help overnight for week +. Trying to raise funds to avoid dangerous East Oakland streets asap. Cannot risk sex trafficting + violence. No EBT atm. Being harsssed for it. Pls help Kofi - Pinned PayPal: nachash358 cash app: doriangrey358

Lumpenpoledancer dressed as a witch. Lined eyes with black. Mini heart collar. Velvet hat. Fishnet shirt.

Lastly: SWers live in fear of increased violence. Because often, they know people get away with mistreating them. That they can’t fight back and be respected and trusted. Let alone say anything. I was threatened with level action for posting this. Even speaking about it. It’s not just “shacking up”

lumpenpoledancer@daturabombs333.bsky.social · 5mo ago

Here you can vaguely see “Ryan” spit at me (listen to the sound and see the snot hit the floor). Also threatened me over recording. Legal if it includes abuse/assault tho. They used mutual aid against me. Would a woman’s shelter help? Please help too: PayPal: @nachash358 Cashapp: $Doriangrey358

In another video I can post I was threatened with “being pulled out of the house by my hair” for simply saying it was “stressful”. Why was the person below “angry”. I owed them for helping me. If not with the BDSM they kept pushing on me, it was with being healthy enough to always function. AA

lumpenpoledancer@daturabombs333.bsky.social · 5mo ago

Here you can vaguely see “Ryan” spit at me (listen to the sound and see the snot hit the floor). Also threatened me over recording. Legal if it includes abuse/assault tho. They used mutual aid against me. Would a woman’s shelter help? Please help too: PayPal: @nachash358 Cashapp: $Doriangrey358