David

@davidmordecai.com

Plants 🌱, personal pablum, less politics than before. Plural, ADDled, #bipolar... In a strange relationship with Madness. #DisabledInBusiness #ShameSlayer #WorthWhisperer Gay & sex-positive. No trans hate! He/they (we) davidmordecai.com ✊🏾🏳️‍🌈🇯🇲🇨🇦

Day sorted though had to cancel one person’s shift so I could take the day off or mostly off. Now for more ziprasidone and hopefully finally some sleep. Hoping our bipolar organism will settle though it doesn’t feel terribly unsettled aside from the sleep challenge… a warning never to be ignored.

David@davidmordecai.com · 19h ago

no sleep yet. mood feels on the high end of euthymic. i have been losing weight without trying and am wondering if I have a thyroid thing going on. Levels checked within the past year and were not of concern to my doc, so I donno. sigh. off to try some more. Six people working tomorrow, yikes.

no sleep yet. mood feels on the high end of euthymic. i have been losing weight without trying and am wondering if I have a thyroid thing going on. Levels checked within the past year and were not of concern to my doc, so I donno. sigh. off to try some more. Six people working tomorrow, yikes.

David@davidmordecai.com · 22h ago

I hope my meds work but not too well, reducing the dose a bit because elephant tranquilizers and need to be up at 5:30. Living the life bipolar #DisabledInBusiness

Lord. And on these and other measures, in part how the Overton Window has moved dramatically rightward to the point that we're now in some retrograde Fugitive Slave Act/Robber Baron without the "good stuff"/Chinese Exclusion Act-Operation WB-Trail of Tears/Jim Crow/Night Rider-Klannish hellscape.

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PRN meds or not (I just took them), I have to be honest and admit that I haven’t seriously tried to sleep yet. Not having a deadline to get up for isn’t always good for us.

Once I entered my late teens, and particularly after escaping homophobic Jamaica for much more progressive Ithaca, New York, I had a clear sense of living a magical life, despite AIDS, the end of the Cold War, etc. I do look back gratefully at 1985 through 2000 as an amazing time to have been young.

My first great experience of grief and loss was the death of my grand uncle Alan. (Spelling, @refracting.bsky.social?) His and his wife’s care and their ancient house shaped me in many ways. At 14, I took to wearing his shirts, and thus cut a rather unusual figure at school. These were my dad’s …

Photograph of a pair of beige socks, lying on top of a pair of grey shoes. There is a label on the socks that says Martin Mordecai and the room number, 3101, of his nursing home.

Yesterday and Thursday were brutal, and will have to work for chunks of this weekend, but enjoying a home spa hour… (Our toes are not pretty but we are working on that!)

Picture of the lower half of my body. At the bottom of the frame, you can see my short shorts, navy blue with white trim. I am sitting on a red plastic deck chair, a small v-shaped portion of which is showing between my legs. The top half of the photo shoes my calves and my feet soaking in a tub. Lilac crocs are on either side of the bin.

No luck with sleep though I can sense bipolar mood declining. Up now working on tax filing and other admin. We had a great week so one miserable day is par for the course. Will take larger dose ziprasidone tonight which will hopefully set the stage for a better day tomorrow and a good long weekend.

David@davidmordecai.com · 5d ago

It’s also a big day in terms of work because we have a tax filing due by midnight. I’m going to try a tiny dose of ziprasidone now in the hope of five hours sleep and energy to work later.

Friend’s mother’s funeral is later this morning. Ideally, I also should have taken my mom to the airport last night. Bipolar mood is euthymic in terms of affect and most indicators, but despite 0.75 mg clonazepam plus my regular 200 mcg clonidine, I have hardly slept. Not feeling safe to drive. 😢

Thanks to ADHD I often misplace things. and I dislike having things on me, so I tend to put them down. Strangely, I rarely fully lose things. Yesterday someone returned my wallet to me despite it being full of cash. Today I managed to retrieve my phone hours after leaving it behind in a washroom.

*standing up on the plane* healthy participation in fandom demands the ability to engage with a text from two different directions simultaneously, in which it is BOTH a piece of media in the real world of which you are obligated to permit public critique, AND an imaginary landscape where you are God

Mo Ryan@moryan.bsky.social · 6d ago

*standing up on the plane* No, getting together a TV couple with will-they/won't-they romantic chemistry is NOT a mistake. You may be listening to conventional wisdom about the TV show Moonlighting, but as has been comprehensively shown by an array of critics, that program's problems had nothing t-

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Last night, I had the best night's sleep I have had in months thanks to 20 mg of ziprasidone. And today I had more energy than I have had in months... very tempted to do it again.