The one nice thing about solo work trips is how much reading I do.

I have to dress like a guy for most of this week for a work conference, and it sucks. It sucks a lot. My nails look so boring and weird without polish.

So the current plan for the first three months seems to be E monotherapy but I have also been offered spiro and dutasteride. Really not sure what to do on those. I don't love what I've read about spiro.

Definitely staring at a bottle of estradiol tablets on my desk.

Back in TBC circa 2007 I swapped mains to a Draenei prot paladin named Jadissa. I've been Jadissa or "Jad" pretty much ever since in my guild, nearly half my life. There's a real chance I've been called Jad more times than my birth name.

Appointment could have gone better, but I'm still on the path to HRT, just waiting on labs now.

Vitaemachina@vitaemachina.bsky.social · last wk.

Today is the day. 🏳️‍⚧️

Today is the day. 🏳️‍⚧️

Vitaemachina@vitaemachina.bsky.social · 4w ago

I uh, I have an appointment in the next two weeks now with Endocrinology. So, uh, that's a thing!

Every single text notification that comes through with the new first name I'm trying makes me smile. That's a good sign, right?

We rescued a pair of cats this week and one of them was pregnant. Imminently pregnant as it turns out. There are five kittens and they all seem okay so far!

Ugh, it got pushed back another week.

Vitaemachina@vitaemachina.bsky.social · 4w ago

I uh, I have an appointment in the next two weeks now with Endocrinology. So, uh, that's a thing!

Still sort of feeling dazed about this hours later.

Vitaemachina@vitaemachina.bsky.social · 4w ago

I uh, I have an appointment in the next two weeks now with Endocrinology. So, uh, that's a thing!

I uh, I have an appointment in the next two weeks now with Endocrinology. So, uh, that's a thing!

Vitaemachina@vitaemachina.bsky.social · 4w ago

Filled out the gender clinic consult request form today.

Okay, so, I've answered to "Jad" for like 20 years now since my paladin Jadissa back in BC. I've probably answered to Jad more than my actual name in my life! So, uh, it doesn't seem too crazy to consider having that be part of my new name, right.

Filled out the gender clinic consult request form today.

"Thank fuck I finished the end of quarter avalanche of bullshit. Finally, I can - oh. Sure, assign a half dozen new things because now it's the start of a new quarter. Sure. Cool." Exhausted by it all. I spend so much of my job now NOT doing what I think of as my job.

Everything Gunmetal Olympus lives rent free in my head. It's all so incredibly well written. And gay. Extremely gay.

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Finally fixed (replaced) the dumb sprayer hose on our kitchen sink that's been leaking for most of the past year. I've gotten a lot of fairly important tasks done in the past few months.

Not for the first time, but I wish I had more trans girl friends, especially ones that have socially transitioned and changed their names.

Naming TTRPG and game characters is really tough for me, and trying to figure out a new name for myself feels like that but harder. Unfortunately, my brain has decided that I need a name I'm okay with before I can move forward with medical stuff so I've been stalled for weeks now.

It's bi visibility day and I'm pretty torn on how I feel about it. On the one hand, bi flag colors are really great. On the other hand, I did a lot of thinking about sexuality while I was reconsidering gender, and I really think any attraction to guys is fairly situational these days.

Told my psychiatrist I'm trans today. He was extremely positive and supportive, and told me up front if I ever needed any letters or anything that he would be very happy to help. Pretty much what I expected from him because he is a great guy, but still nice to have it actually play out like that.

Uggggh, I thought I did such a good job at planning out everything today and then I found out something wasn't where I thought it was and NOW I AM RUNNING LATE and it is THE WORST.

Trade show starts tomorrow and I have to look like a guy for all of it and it sucks.

I have discovered that I greatly dislike silicone skin glue / medical adhesive. It is an absolute nightmare to remove from things.

This is all sorts of confusing as someone that's only ever lived in northern IL, WI, and MN. My dad was from MD and lived in TX for years so I know I have had some of that bleed into pronunciation/words, but...California, really? I'm pretty sure it's just saying it because I don't say "bubbler".

So @luthvian.bsky.social got me some thigh highs from Sock Dreams for my birthday and included a little note with the order, and got a response. It is incredibly sweet.

I deeply do not want to spend my birthday tonight raiding, and I entirely blame Blizzard for dropping the new tier when they did.

There should be a specific word that describes the pain you feel when you read your horribly written fanfiction 20+ years later. Maybe German has a word like that already.

This week is homophobic

I really need to find some communities with trans folks.