alright, i usually didn't think taking meds made a huge difference but my brain is night and day after not being on meds for like a month+, then taking 1. i have a vague sense of the difference. i wish it was as clearcut as like a painkiller.

'The General Zapped an Angel' (1970) by Dutch-Italian artist Karel Thole

extremely important PSA

The Suicide Note

too many creepypasta creatures are like smiling or laughing. my eldritch ass would have RBF

finally done with a realm reborn but we haven't finished novice hall stuff so we're still sprouts. can i get all the way to current content as a sprout

and so on

I must preface my next statement with a nod to "Every Platform is Hitler" aria.dog/barks/every-...

Every Platform is Hitler: mourning friendships lost—Aria’s Barks

Quickfire Nuremberg for an infinite scroll of nazi bars. Epstein medals will be disbursed.

aria.dog

digital painting study from like ~15 seconds of the RHPC movie i did last year RIP Tim Curry what a guy

my therapist wants me to catalog my thoughts so maybe i'll make another bsky for venting since it seems to be the the place i kvetch the most. and it'd be a way to contain it so it doesn't end up here or on my AD. i don't imagine i would publicize it since it would just be boring and unpleasant

RIP to two of the best to ever do it

i thought about this a little after therapy (i was trying to explain how i live with ideation) and honestly, It Follows isn't a terrible metaphor for it. like yeah the STD parallels are obvious but the whole 'it follows you forever, but you can manage it' thing i guess.

hey kids, you like liminal spaces? well, just remember, technically that's what being alive is

i hate working in marketing because people will act like it's a matter or life of death if we do not Annoy Consumers in a timely enough fashion

i have less anxiety about going to the dentist than getting my hair cut because at the dentist i have an excuse to Not Talk. but this is the one time i went somewhere and the dentist+assistant were actually talking about things i could chime in on. argh

ugh reading about someone having a mental breakdown after getting the same surgery dentists keep insisting i need doesn't help. i feel like I live in a weird opposite world where medical people are CONSTANTLY pushing me towards surgeries that feel unncessary

I promise I have some new pieces to show very soon!

lrt: i kind of relate but maybe i don't have rsd. in my case, i feel it is an objective fact that i am at best boring, shallow, awful company, and at worse, a toxic, abusive black hole of a person. I don't want to connect with people because i know I bring nothing to the table and/or -

baby helmet

25/25 Bycatch fish officially done and painted 🥳 Onto scanning and formatting!

Another bigger drawing of Puck! this one didn't come together quite as well, but I still really like a lot of the main parts and wanted to share!

"Witness my Act and Deed", 1882 - Frank Paton, British (1855 - 1909)

gryphons but they're two different invertebrates

camp miasma ruled

This katydid nymph has been eating my roses for the past few days and seems to be turning pink 🌿🌱

for like five minutes i was *convinced* morshu said 'come back when you're a little mmmm thicker' and was looking for it desperately

in the middle of my ketamine, convinced i'm stupid and useless and wasting everyone's time even trying therapy and meds. sigh