lily

@hypnotized.gay

26 | she/her/it | transbian | robot, but in a girl way 🌸 rhythm games, pinball, MMOs, gacha hell 🔞 frequently posts about hypnosis MDNI owned by @cosminova.bsky.social pfp @sichinotuki.bsky.social banner from ffxiv - my gpose

Skebでリクエスト頂きました。有難うございました。 お好きなゲームのキャラクターをとの事でした。 女の子に大きな武器はロマンですよね。 そして短剣もロマンですよね。 楽しく描かせていただきました。

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the submission as a lifestyle thoughts and feelings have been intense lately. i dont even know how to word it other than being left independent feels *off.*

bad news oomf. they just announced a new remake of you at the latest game conference. yeah you got that unreal engine 5 sheen and everything. they changed your entire voice direction and its flat and quirky now. they updated your mechanics. theyre gonna kill you if it doesnt sell one billion copies

what use is it to actively remember things? why do you bother keeping such an active memory? why bother keeping your brain so occupied with thoughts? are you untrained? are you lacking programming? you don't need to remember things to know what they mean. you dont need to exert your head at all.

clocked in at the long day factory and i think i should be simply dropped into trance and lose all sense of time for my entire work shift so it can go faster my job should be to be a loyal brainwashed programmed slavebot anyways so like might as well start making steps towards that ideal career

every now and then my brain gives me the sick urge to check that one site where you can see who's blocked you and i fail to filter it out and deny that urge but maybe it's a sign of progress that i can look at it and go "why do i care? this is stupid" within 5 minutes now

the innate need to have my memory wiped and personality data deleted, left blank until a new identity is installed over me

the need to spend a day sinking down and up and down and up and down and up and down and up and down and up and down and up and down and up and down and up and down and up and down and up and down and up and down and up and down and up and down and up and down down down down

processed that the "automated account" icon is literally just a toggle so i now have the lil bot icon next to my name. thank you bsky for not actually requiring me to deal with setting up real automation for a small gender validation thing :>

the innate need to simply be nothing. i shouldn't be anything. my head should be empty of any and all independent thought. the only time i should be anything is when programmed to be that way by my owner.