jmtorres

@jmtorres.bsky.social

I've been in fandom for awhile, you can find me on ao3, tumblr, and DW with the same handle. Queer, disabled, middle-aged, Jewish dyke.

in other news the cat spent a higher than usual proportion of last night and today on top of me and i'm forced to wonder does she understand enough english that she's fulfilling my request for snuggles yesterday, or is she concerned about me for some reason

wild. i have a headache that seems centered on my weird forehead lump and against all better judgement i searched the internet and results suggest it's NOT cancer

i feel bad like i couldn't sleep and then had Side Effect crap, which is standard "how my body crashes," but also I'm cold (spouse tells me the weather's the same, it's just me) and my blood sugar was elevated while i was having side effects which is a thing that can happen if you have an infection

watching Mulder compulsively eating sunflower seeds and thinking about my experience of the nineties, he should have been a smoker but they were drawing a deliberate good guy/bad guy line with cigarettes

hunted down the 1998 x-files film (it is not on hulu like the rest of the series) and am crushed it came out 6 years too early for the alien vs caveman joke i wanted to make spouse: so is the black oil a parasite? terminator goo? me: i think the comparison you want is Venom

I wanna get up and eat something, but the cat is sitting on me. Unsure if I should take this as Cat believes I am furniture or Cat believes I should stay the fuck in bed. 

we got to the end of season five of the X-Files and the "Luke. I am your father" moment and I immediately told spouse my theory about CSM sacrificed spender's mom and not the kid, except I had to remind spouse that spender was the dude whose mom was an abductee & he wanted Mulder to leave her alone

ok i tried to practice swimming correctly and i'm tired and it took longer so either i'm doing it wrong or i have been issued a nonstandard body (or both) and my ring has been getting loose and trying to escape so i stuck it in my bag for my swim and i did not like that my hand felt nakey

ok i am currently waiting thru this weekend to see if "vet appointment and swim lesson" is an amount of outings i can recover from in fewer than 3 days therefore i will NOT try to schedule vaccines until next week they will put me on my ass and ruin the data

lol so it turns out most of the reason i don't swim good has nothing to do with my knee it's bc i lift my head rather than turning it to breathe. because turning my head sideways gets SO much water in my ears. i'm having flashbacks to the three weeks i sat on the bleachers in hs with ear infection

learning i've been MISSING OUT i read primarily by audiobook and apparently they leave out stuff like author's notes and dedications even when they are interesting and hilarious?? my friend reading @tkingfisher.com white rat books on my recommendation copying all the extra matter into chat for me

lordt i had forgotten how expensive tampons are. and/or possibly everything costs more. i'm gonna try to roll with washable period underwear in general but if i want to swim, it's either tampons or moon cup, and tbh i did not like the cup

since last i had a period (decade+ continuous bc), apple health has developed things to predict your period or tell you if it's irregular and i'm torn between "that could be useful" and "OH FUCK NO"

my cat wants to sit on me way more than she has in awhile. part of me wants to think she's identified that i need rest, part of me says she's cold and wants me for my body heat. it's supposed to be in the 50s tonight.