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@kitschlet.bsky.social

kitsch, 30s, luo binghe lover. AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/users/kitschlet

i've been dragging my feet on actually writing my novel and just chipping away at the pre-writing for so long that i keep thinking "ugh just scrap it and start something new that you're actually going to write," but whenever i actually work on it i can just feel that it's going to all come together

mastodon seems to be down (or at least i can't connect to the instance i use) but my first indication of this was me trying to post deltarune discourse and getting the error message "the server rejected the post," so i thought they just had a filter to be like, absolutely no deltarune discourse

book i'm working on is not Romance (bc it has a bad ending) (although it's about ppl being obsessed with each other) but i do want to try writing romance someday because i think it perfectly suits my strengths as a writer. everything that annoys me about bad romance novels is something i'm good at

i like to think of llhb shen yuan guiltily playing binghe's douyin thirst trap videos in his earbuds at his job all day... he has them all memorized, it's just soothing background noise. "guiltily" because it'll be humiliating if his fiance finds out he likes him

rich boy and reliable shidi liu qingge given every possible advantage but still fumbling the sqq bowl and coming well behind "accidentally ruined his life" zzl is a metaphor for how inherited wealth can only take you so far

(not directed at op, just general knowledge) the term gay panic specifically comes from the "gay panic" defense - a legal defense stating that a straight perpetrator cannot be held liable for their violent assault or murder of a queer victim bc they perceived the victim as coming onto them, which

Impy@wayward-imp.bsky.social · 3mo ago

Does anyone else struggle with the urge to hold it against authors who use the term "gay panic" to describe the emotional flailing of someone who can't get up the nerve to face the person they like? But the authors simply DO NOT KNOW that "gay panic" is what it was called when bigots killed people.

for a while i was not feeling like working on my novel BECAUSE it's so dark and i wanted to write a dumb romcom but recently while working on it i've had this feeling like... this is a lot of hard work, and will take a long time, and also i can do it and I want to do it 😌

wow you have dogshit taste (remembers im trying to be nicer to people who like different things) uh i mean, it's beautiful how the breadth of human experience is so wide it encompasses those with good taste and those with dogshit taste

tbh i didn't actually mean to delete my twitter permanently, i was trying to log in once every 30 days to maintain its existence but at some point like years ago i forgot to do that and it was deleted permanently. which is fine bc i have the archive, but i do miss the replies on the llhb thread 🥲