Lily

@lilypheria.bsky.social

lvl 30+ | nsfw | she/her | naruto | narusasu | ffvii | sefikura/kurasefi | fic author | reading | gaming | anti-harassment | https://archiveofourown.org/users/lilypheria

A part of me is like, "I can keep posting Like Magnets" but the other part doesn't want to bother bc if ppl hate it NOW, they're just gonna hate the coming chapters too. I would need to rewrite stuff and I really don't care at this point

I ended up starting anxiety meds again but I chose the ones that shouldn't blunt my emotions and they also shouldn't cause weight gain. They've already helped a little but I'm still not okay yet, not even close

I played FFVII Remake recently and cheated a little (put maximum damage on and played the last chapter through chapter select so I can skip the highway boss), and now I'm playing Rebirth from the beginning again. I am having a lot of fun now, especially after deciding to ditch Queen's Blood

This is what I mean when I say that its depressing doing art, writing fics, gposing, ect and getting crickets in response. "Do it because you like it" only goes so far when fandom is supposed to be nerds and creatives supporting each other.

a beautiful middle-aged freak🐉🍙@monkhazard.bsky.social · 5mo ago

The tags on this Tumblr post really sum up how I feel as a writer about the current state of fandom, and my increasing lack of motivation to write & share fics