Zinnabelle

@magic.swordsz.in

30s she/her 🏳️‍⚧️ lesbian | 🔞 | writes sapphic erotica | posts lewds | not dtf irl sry magic.swordsz.in | patreon.com/zinnabelle

i feel like i spent my 20s orienting my entire social life around Activities I could provide and now that I no longer do that it's like i have no idea what friendship even looks like

"youth is wasted on the young": cliche, shitty untrue thing that bitter old people say "personhood is wasted on the depersonalized": avant garde, original, accurately reflects my own personal experience

it's a little ironic that when i was in a depersonalized fugue i had time and space to be a person but now that im not walking through a dysphoric haze it's like all my time is spent being a parent. and im not even a very good parent!

there a girl at the Zorbaz wearing a bikini top and unbuttoned daisy dukes and i can tell whenever my wife glaces across the room and sees her because she visibly takes Horny Damage

if you'd told me at 30 that i was going to look hotter and feel younger at 40 i wouldve assumed that the 2020s were going to have some huge advances in immortality superscience but it turns out the priestesses chugging horse piss had everything figured out

i think that it's important for girls to mourn the life they didn't get to have, and imagining an alternate past or an easy transition is one way to work on emotionally processing that. but also you can't get lost in the fantasy, you must be able to return to your life and make progress in reality.

hey guys: so you've thought about gender and decided that, although you aren't particularly attached to being "a man," you don't think you're trans because you don't "want to be a woman." i know that feel. here are some symptoms of dysphoria that were present in nearly every aspect of my life:

idea: butchfemme assassin couple where the butch is some suave bond type superspy and then the femme is a weird crusty little pervert with a stack of porn mags in her sniper nest

before i call a medical professional i like to take some notes about things that i need to know but might forget. like, you know, my name and birthday. just in case.

"if you think about it, ct scans are *like* a boudoir photoshoot" <- me trying to become okay with the possibility of paying like a thousand dollars for this