Hm I really should get out of here and just interact again but already four days...

Mayuuri@mayuuri1024.bsky.social · 6d ago

Once again applying the tactic of isolating myself from anyone and seeing if someone comes from me and once again being disappointed by it and feeling excruciating loneliness. This has never worked for me and probably never will, it does not give me what I want (attention, I'm a whore) but it does

Once again applying the tactic of isolating myself from anyone and seeing if someone comes from me and once again being disappointed by it and feeling excruciating loneliness. This has never worked for me and probably never will, it does not give me what I want (attention, I'm a whore) but it does

I hate the taste of it so much but I feel like I'd need quite a bit more alcohol to survive today

Do I even deserve to talk about it with anyone

I want your pity so bad. Makes it clear you shouldn't give it to me.

please make me bleed out slowly

About video games, I think if you're putting things into genre brackets you're already lost. "This game doesn't know what kind of game it wants to be," "This game is a failure of the genre," "There are too many games in the genre," etc. Listen, genre is defined by the popular games and their copies.

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Listening to good music makes me existential and sad and I don't know if to feel good or bad it's a weird mix.

Nai pulling her noodle brains out.

I envy so much. I hate so much. I get lost in my head so much, and I don't manage to find back my path so much.

I hate it.

my body is lucky that I'm too tired and and it's too cold for me to go get a razor at this time. My mind really isnt too lucky.

Two stabs in my stomach must feel good asf right now.

I took a picture today of me and when I look at it is almost as if that isn't me... Must be one of the best pics I've taken.

Do you ever pass time with your friends and then after doing so you feel terrible for no particular reason and feel like you have to make mitosis to generate a clone of yourself and then grab a knife and stab your clone multiple times until they die from blood loss.

and I'm sorry

well I got my dose now I'm not doing that again don't worry

hehe... what a poser... turns out I still do have a visceral reaction to blood ehehehe well this helps me remember my fear to that thing hehehehe what a laaaarper

ima be alr tho dw

I wish I could cry

I'm always just alright though. I never cry so I am alright and I will always move on.

I am never sincere and never to be trusted

Please grab a stick and bash me until Im almost dead and keep a distance to let me know I'm so insignificant my blood is not deserving of staining a human like you

Please act like im the only and most important thing in the world. I wont believe it myself but perhaps I could believe that you believe it

shouldn't write here