mystearical.bsky.social
@mystearical.bsky.social
Gigi, 25+ artist, crocheter, book collector, tales of enjoyer.
One of the first quests of Witcher 3 including Mislavs story hurts me so bad. Geralt going “I’m a freak too” and then hearing that’s what he meant. Augh.
(gritting my teeth) my grandmothers primary care doctor calling me back 2 entire WEEKS after i tried to repeatedly contact them over a dementia related psychotic break, you love to see it
Seeing the difference between my grandmother on and off antidepressants is wild man
All these cute family shows about big emotional life events like sending your kids off to college I can’t connect to because I can barely get out of bed in the morning
Studying the affects of anything to do with dementia and what could help it/ speed it up is such a shit shoot and most studies can’t even be backed up because Alzheimer’s patients are all snowflakes (in uniqueness to their mental health and deterioration)
Going to my first therapy session next week and I have to admit the insane jealousy I feel at people who have not had to watch a family member slowly die for 10+ years. How nice it is to only have to care for oneself
I hope the clerk who turned me away at the court today has to undergo being a caregiver for someone who cannot care for themselves and instead of doing a 2 second google search maybe realize that I’ve been researching this shit for 3 years
See the thing that is so bleak is that I feel like every single industry is trying to force all companies into being understaffed so at times it just doesn’t even feel worth it to job hunt for something better
oh god. heard audience of one for the first time in 5ever and i am deeply feeling things
If I could go back in time and talk to my younger self I think I would have this advice: kill your heroes and kill them now. (Metaphorically speaking)
Filled with incandescent rage that the economy is so bad I need 2 jobs to live and have no personal time or energy for reading or doing anything that isn’t exchanging my body for some rich prick who doesn’t pay taxes. 2 warehouse jobs! 2!!!!
I love when my boss texts me in the middle of taking my family out to dinner to tell me I need to do better at work. I’m getting so sick of this place lmfao
I think it’s good that I’ve stopped feeling bad about calling out of my second job. So what if I’m not the world’s most reliable employee. They know I just need some additional income and when I rack up enough sick time. Yeah I’ll be needing to call out
Working 9 to 5, not enough to make a living Then start my 5 to 9, barely see the inside of my apartment All to pay my rent which every year keeps rising It's enough to drive you crazy if you let it (if you let it)
I am also a little tired of seeing artists like “I sold this piece for 10k” on my instagram when I can’t even get a pity buy on a crochet shawl I spent weeks making for $70 and my old friend ghosts me after saying she wants to buy something I made for $50
Unfortunately I think I’m just fully depressed because I feel trapped in my life
Working 9 to 5, not enough to make a living Then start my 5 to 9, barely see the inside of my apartment All to pay my rent which every year keeps rising It's enough to drive you crazy if you let it (if you let it)
Ugh everyone from my work radio to the roller skating event downtown is playing 9 to 5 and it’s a song that makes me want to cry every time I hear it. I’m so tired of living in this unaffordable country
I wish I was home crying in the shower instead of at my second job
Wish I wasn’t completely incapable of not breaking down in front of corporate visitors but like I’m also incredibly tired of pushing myself so hard just for none of them to care how stressed we all are !!!!!!
Alright I read Carl’s description of seeing the circus as a kid in doomsday scenario and I will relent it did make me emotional
I find it hard to connect to modern family because it is so very obvious that none of them are struggling financially
I wish every festival downtown a very shut the fuck up
The eye roll I had to suppress when my coworker said out loud she was a micro influencer
Was soooooo close to snoozing in the break room aughhhh im so tired of work being my life