I WANT TO BINGE </3

actually so disgusted (2024 vs 2026)

body is so tired. i just did a workout because i weighed myself today !! 😝

someone buy me a dispo right MEOWWWW!!!

so anyways 2026 is gonna be my year !! ill come up w a plan later tdy i am wayyyy too fucking tired to atm ..

hiiii so i gained some weight and husband pointed it out and i am actually so disgusted now i think i will kms !!

feeling so # homicidal LOLLLL

i dont want to die but i feel like everyone would be better off without me

me when .. me when i cannot react normally (SOMEBODY SEDATE ME)

i need to learn how to cook yall

guys so i gained weight and i might fucking kms I FEEL SO SHIT RAHHH

how many more years can i get away with saying “this is my last year being fat”? like this is getting ridiculous, the first time i said that was like 7 years ago🫩 i just look like a fool atp

TW// SH

i accidentally just one swiped beans 💀

i finally did it, i had the abortion unfortunately now i feel extremely suicidal and want to stab myself :p

okay well maybe i should just kms ! have my cake and eat it too 😝

back on that ED shit 🕺 (currently at 810 cals) im using Lose It! to track my calories :3c currently on a plan to lose 1 1/2 lbs per week i want to go harder but i also know that if i do i will start binge eating again 😞 (limit is 1k) also hoping to workout again cause i want to lose more hehe

i feel so social but i got no friends 💯

maybe i am just meant to suffer

sometimes i forget my bpd affects anyone but me until i explode or feel way too much and take it out on those around me me and my lover go to couples counseling and our therapist told me that i push him away out of a fear of being abandoned or rejected and fail to trust him the way he deserves

today the kms meter is average

everytime i do anything i always end up wanting to kill myself just a little more. i am just so tired of feeling like a failure and a shit person .

i wish we never got this fucking dog

oh my god im gonna start fucking tweaking WHAT ARE YOU ONNNNNNN BRUH

guys i am losing all desire to live i rlly need to see someone before i go insane

i need to see a therapist again cause i feel so deeply suicidal

everything hurts my emotionally fragile heart i wish i was just fucking normal or that i could just remove my emotions entirely ... what is the point of having the ability to feel empty if my brain DOESNT FUCKING USE IT RAH