Dogboy Creature

@ratparty.bsky.social

It/he ● 29 ● I bite Sort of an artist, sort of a dog, sort of a guy. An amalgamation of half identities.

The duality of wanting to live in New York where you have to pay $3000/mo to live in a shoebox but there is incredibly functional and reliable public transportation and wanting to live in rural vermont where its beautiful and low cost of living but nothing to do

No one understands, Muppet Hadestown wouldnt have Kermit and Ms Piggy as Orpheus and Eurydice. If you understood the muppets at all you'd know clearly that Muppets Hadestown would have Kermit and Ms Piggy as Hades and Persephone

Day one learning to skate as an adult: stood in my skates for a few minutes too scared to move. Did some balance drills in my skates. Practiced standing from sitting on the ground. Got comfortable moving a little. Reminded myself a million times to bend my knees and keep my ass out. Fall count: 1

I know im like 5 years too late to the game but Hadestown really hit me. Loving someone so much that you would walk to the ends of the earth and beyond to ensure their safety but letting doubt in yourself and the world destroy the relationship and yourself? Doesnt strike close to home or anything

I think i manage well 99% of the time but oh my god it sucks having uncontrolled chronic pain. Theres no good treatment for the underlying cause of my pain, non opiate pain medications straight up do not work, and i refuse to take opiates (personal choice based off addiction family history/ risk)

The abdonment trauma goes hard at 3AM after a series of nightmares. I play it cool 99% of the time because my PTSD isn't anyone elses problem, but I am so tired of feeling so disconnected from people and community and just scared all the time. Shit sucks.