ari 🪷

@sillyari.bsky.social

21 they/them big touhou fan will give you niche music recs will make music sometimes too infp i dont really ever post adult-ish things but theres a chance i might lets all love lain https://www.pinterest.com/rewrittenmemories/

how is it logical to miss someone ive never met, never seen, never once talked to; to feel love and comfort in someone that doesnt even exist? did i fall in love with myself or simply a character my mind had conjured? am i overthinking my feelings and just dont know who im feeling these emotions for

genuinely, i do not say not believe this often, but the backrooms was a fucking masterpiece. the only thing i want is more knowledge on mary's family and history

i was there before the backrooms blew up. writing fanfiction. i started writing an unfinished beyond the backrooms story on wattpad not even a month after the original post. the last chapter i ever wrote was a mirror world.

there are so many things that can make this world perfect but people in charge are full of hatred and create things that generate struggle for lower classes. i really wish a utopian world was realistic in our lifetimes

i went to a thrift store today. i just want to expand my wardrobe with things gender neutral and good looking. in the place i live i feel pressed to look at the men's sections and nothing else. its always so shit. i hate it. at least I found one thing. why can't i be pretty without fear

for a long time ive thought of myself as genderfluid and even just nonbinary but in recent months ive come to despise my masculinity altogether and it just keeps growing. at the same time i find extremely masculine men incredibly attractive, so am i really trans or just incredibly self-loathing?