I know I've talked to one friend already, do I know anyone that still lives down in the Portland area? Kind of debating a weekend trip down there, or at least staying for a couple nights in the middle of what would otherwise be a week-long staycation.

Excuse me, that is no longer my cardboard box, it belongs to the cats. I simply watch over it.

ADHD Memes@adhdforreal.bsky.social · 4d ago

Ping to locals to see if anyone feels like goin' out and doin' something tonight.

The chintzy-looking M64 clone console of the N64 by a company named ModRetro has been released, I think, I don't pay attention that closely to shit. But as the great @frankcifaldi.bsky.social posted before, it is our civic duty to push back against this company and shun ANYONE who doesn't.

Well, got my BLFC room, immediately second-guessing whether I should have gotten a suite or not, considering it's not a party floor room and I don't really have anyone to share it with. z_z Bluh, anxiety.

I dunno, maybe I staycation for part of a week and go to.. like, Portland for a weekend or something. It's not a full-on vacation, but it gets me out of the apartment. >_>

Woke up, still poking at it, still nothing. I don't think I get to play Tokon lol

Starting to wonder if someone fuckin' cursed me, the way everything in my life down to minor attempts at joy keeps going wrong.

2.5 hours of troubleshooting, all I have to show for it is a headache. Oh, well.

Spent the last 45 minutes trying to get the Tokon beta to work. Keeps crashing out within 30 seconds of getting into the game. UE-MTFS fatal error when it bothers to pop an error for me. Driver reinstalled, game files verified, game reinstalled, PC rebooted. Nothing. Just crashing.

Free to good home: one (1) black cat. Comes with own hoodie.

Not very likely, I imagine, but anyone in the mood for a short-term visitor or visiting a cat short-term? I got vacation to burn before September.

I have been feeling very rundown lately. I've got vacation time, I can use it, but if I take one more staycation, I don't think I'm going to escape the dent that I leave in the couch.

Good night, internet. I hope tomorrow is better for all of us.

I feel like anyone I've ever said that phrase to, it's a curse in my life. Platonic or otherwise, it's just been nothing but a curse. I'm starting to feel afraid to hear it.

Like, I'm sorry that the experiences in my formative years created somebody who's absolutely dogshit at expressing emotions. I don't like being like this, I wish my friends said they loved me and I could say I love them without feeling like I'm getting emotionally side eyed.

I wish I understood how to properly convey to people that I am honestly trying to do my best and am not acting with malicious intent when I do or say things, but my borderline autistic ass is apparently incapable, so I guess I'll just keep losing friends one by one.

hot sun bad

Mood is pretty okay today. I dunno why. Nothing happened. I just took a sick day from work today and I'm less fussy. ... fuck, maybe I do need to get out of here for a week or something.

I want to play marvel rivals with friends that I like being around, the game seems like it'd be a lot of fun I just don't wanna solo queue all the time.

“Why are you a furry?” *25 years until retirement, dealing with racism, rent, neurodivergence, politics, inflation (not that one), trauma, homophobia, and fighting the nihilistic existential black hole if my identity in the grand scheme of the universe has any meaning/purpose* I’m a fox teehee 🦊

getaway vacation #furryart #yiff

I also want to go on a roller coaster. I haven't been on a roller coaster for a long time because of the weight that I put on, and now it shouldn't be a problem. I want to go on a roller coaster.

I kind of want to go visit somebody I know, I haven't seen so many people outside of conventions for such a long time.

I wanna get out of this fuckin' state for a few days. Or a week. I need time away from work and shit.

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Like, I just wish I understood how to go to social events and gatherings and whatever by myself and just integrate into groups and make friends. It seems like anywhere I go, large scale gatherings are just multiple impenetrable pockets of people who went with other people to hang out with them.

Feeling a bit better now. Loneliness still got its fangs in pretty deep, but I'm just kind of existing now instead of letting the intrusive thoughts win. Can't help the looming dread that I'm just meant to be by myself, though.