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zeli

@zeliii.bsky.social

my websites journal has been updated! a really long dark vent. ill include it here in screenshot form. i talk about my experience in the touhou community and being on the receiving end of blatant misogyny cw: rape, pedophilia, abuse, suicide, self harm yuutou.nekoweb.org/journal.html

june 20th, 2026

PLEASE NOTE: this specific journal entry may contain upsetting content. warnings for mentions of rape, pedophilia, abuse, suicide, self harm. this is a vent piece

touhoufest, huh?

what used to be something i really wanted to go to turned into a name uttered in an under-the-breath curse a year ago. i wanted to attend to see all of my friends gathered in one place to have fun, but even without participating it became one of the most isolating topics of my life. im really frustrated with the fact that theyre just letting a man who covered for my abuser stay on their staff. it was probably the last nail in the coffin for me staying in the touhou community as a whole. and the nightmare continues to be ongoing

for the uninformed, that man's online username is spaztique. youve probably seen him around, both literally and metaphorically. he helps with walfas-related groups as well as the walfas station wagon. this is a man that devalued me into the dirt and was one of the people that introduced a bias towards me that othered me from belonging to a community. all of that has already been addressed on my bluesky.

ive talked about him plenty enough, but thats not why im here typing this today. spaztique is just one of many cogs in a machine.

youve probably noticed that ive become a little more averse to being social or open over the years. i talk less, freeze up in vcs, stumble over my words. the experience im going to talk about is the reason for that.

the touhou community, at large, is one of the most creative spaces ive ever seen and participated in. theres fangames, fan art, fan music, cosplay, merch up the wazoo. its this dedication that inspired me to pick up a pencil and learn to draw when i was eight. i was a part of the community space for 15 years as a result of me discovering it so early from niconicodouga memes and MAD culture. it was my creative muse for the longest time. i left this space a year ago barely being able to remember any good as…

zeli @zeliii.bsky.social · 5mo ago

patchouli knowledge from hit game allusions 2

zeli @zeliii.bsky.social · 6mo ago

anyone know that one manga that has this like these two girls with one having an egg on their head amd the other a mushroom

zeli @zeliii.bsky.social · 7mo ago

blame the universe for giving me too much fun stuff to do instead of studying

zeli @zeliii.bsky.social · 7mo ago

Spot Late 🍴🍴🍴🍴🍴🍴🍴🍴🍴🍴🍴🍴🍴🍴🍴🍴

zeli @zeliii.bsky.social · 7mo ago

abi abery dot bee sky dot socl

zeli @zeliii.bsky.social · 10mo ago

where's dunkin donuts

zeli @zeliii.bsky.social · last yr.

ZELI CAUGHT DYING TO CIRNO

zeli @zeliii.bsky.social · last yr.

ina baku mori

zeli @zeliii.bsky.social · last yr.

@aviavery.bsky.social you gave me like 30 notifications when i opened the app 😭

zeli @zeliii.bsky.social · last yr.

sakuya touhou is awesome

zeli @zeliii.bsky.social · last yr.

i can't with this game "once upon a time, three happy birds lived in a warm and lush forest" RAAAHHHHHHH LET ME DEAL WITH THE ORDEALS OF WHITE IN PEACEEEE bongbong can only solo so much..