I did absolutely nothing today but also wasn't miserable. I think I might have actually relaxed. This is not a thing I am capable of doing so this is just incredible news.

I can actually feel my brain straining to build neural connections between my left hand and right hand and I simply do not have any spare neuron capacity atm

Okay I was able to get controller support that helps. I have never played a game with a mouse and keyboard before and that was making it worse. I don't have those neural pathways from playing FPS games.

When I was a kid I was obsessed with the idea of 3D games I played Fester's Quest and Golgo 13 and the Legend of the Mystical Ninja 3D maze at the arcade but as soon as doom dropped I realized no, actually, this is terrible.

I tried playing a first person game and felt seasick I've never had this happen before, I've never felt more old. I generally dislike first person games but that was a matter of taste not of biological rejection.

This is a pretty good Fumiko. You can see the difference when I don't commission it, though. www.pixiv.net/artworks/147...

#ChainsawMan Cheerleader Fumiko - Keidhのイラスト - pixiv

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The main problem with the summer is philosophical. There's simply no experience I could have in the summer that wouldn't be improved by doing it in the fall or winter instead.

With both neuromodulation and HRT change is so slow because cells don't necessarily change, you have to wait for an older generation to die off and be replaced, like the Senate. There are macrophages that live for three fucking months.

DUO

I hate how hungry I am this month. Nothing like prepping a meal and eating it and it's nowhere near enough. I'm going to have to go over food budget for summer vacation. I'm sick of eating.

tend to not be scold over edgy schlock but the mii-chan stuff seems genuinely evil in a way most of that stuff doesn't

I'm curious about this Mii-chan and Mrs. Yamada series and the controversy around it. Has anyone read it? I'm wondering where it actually lands on the "it should be illegal to publish anything that makes me sad" vs "slavery Isekai are good and brave and literary masterworks" scale.

Disliking the culture of reddit or 4chan is self explanatory and obvious but it's always been hard for me to define while I also dislike Tumblr. I thought it was internalized misogyny for so long but I think that all discourse there is specifically so fandom oriented. People all talk like fans.

Yeah I actually bought CDs of stand up comedy aeons ago. Well, no big loss. There's nothing I'm missing out on.

There was a lot of alternative stand-up comedy in the 2000s that I liked, but like the Iraq War we have to act like none of it happened since it was predicated on premises like “nobody actually believes in outright bigotry anymore, so everyone understands it’s funny to say things.” Then Facebook hit

Comedy Central in the 90s used to have multiple stand-up clip shows to the point I’d notice they all were from the same library. I watched HBO specials of comics I never heard of because they were all different. I did this daily for years. I haven’t watched stand-up for like, a quarter century now.

Kyle.@chibiufo.bsky.social · 2d ago

I used to be such a huge stand-up comedy nerd growing up but man I just find the whole art of stand up in general to be fucking dead and it's just full of terrible terrible people

First day of vacation proper and I slept all day. Good, I needed that.

Target spotted🎯

I'm jealous of everyone else's experience of nostalgia. They get to do some kind of "wee I'm a kid again" thing whereas I always end up feeling like I was the world's dumbest and most credulous five year old.

Coming back to Final Fantasy 6 as a media literate adult it's kind of staggering how similar it is to both Chrono Trigger and Final Fantasy 7. FF7 is technically just a lot of the same plot beats from FF6 done differently.

Sharing my art helps me a lot 🙏🏼🖤

So when your constant anxiety goes away, the fear and anxiety that used to motivate you to do everything disappear and are replaced by... Nothing. It would be nice to skip directly from lack of anxiety to inner peace but the next stage is basically flat affect and lack of motivation.

I skipped shocking my brain yesterday to avoid a migraine (which didn't happen) but I wasn't anxious yesterday anyway. The permanent change is here. My brain is fixed.

The pixel remaster of FF6 changed the Opera!!! I screwed it up for the first time since 1995. That's rough.

Okay after breakfast my head feels a lot better but I am going to take it super easy today, the migraine gods are not to be trifled with.

I was a big fan of Red Dwarf when I was younger and there was an episode and expanded novelization called "Better than Life" which was this mind-reading VR game that read your unconscious mind and delivered whatever fantasies you repressed so the main plot was all of the characters getting stuck...

I think I feel a massive headache coming on. I've gotten migraines just two or three times in my life but I have gotten them, and just... Can I not, today? I would prefer not to. Eating a big breakfast to try and head whatever off.

I think I'm sick. First day of summer vacation so yeah that tracks. I feel absolutely terrible.

The ANN reviews for Tomb Raider King are terrible and the forums even hate it so damn why did that get a review slot over poor beloved Dara-san. I guess the voters don't use the site? I've just never seen an anime so bad the forum users don't even defend it.

I got switched to patch estrogen since the gel estrogen I was using had my levels a little low. This is a steady state but I don't get the estrogen high in the mornings and evenings anymore, which sucks.