Someone save me from myself: I started thinking about downloading Hinge again. The problem is, of course, that the alternatives are 1) too much effort or 2) die alone

Oh hey, I also forgot to plug our latest paper - a short but hopefully informative investigation on the predictive power of baseline serum erythropoietin in MDS patients. One of those I would have loved to have done a longitudinal analysis on, but, alas, we did not have sufficient data.

Every now and then someone takes a run at me along the lines of "I don't understand why you, a scifi writer, don't appreciate 'AI'," and I'm all, motherfucker, it's *because* I'm a science fiction writer I have the positions I have, how many times do we have to fucking yell "torment nexus," my dude

Nerds, I love you. Some of you have been especially kind and supportive to this grumpy, self-obsessed stranger and for that more than anything I thank you.

Oh no, you're not catching me out, I'm not going to watch that until I'm more stable (which may be never, let's be honest)

We should refer to instances of US/UK confusion as, "Oh so you hate flapjacks?"

Filing "maybe I'd be happier if I had a simple repetitive job" alongside "maybe I'd be happier on T" under "everything I know about myself leads me to conclude this is unlikely and I need to stop looking for simple solutions".

Log onto the internet. See we're still deep in the discourse. Log out.

So yeah I'm still here and not really doing much better? but at least managing to look at the internet occasionally

Guess tomorrow I can try and get my life back on track. Again. Not that I am even sure there are tracks tbh

Not doing great.

I'm really not doing so great, guys. And my best friend is having an even worse time of it and another close friend is struggling with her health and this fucking country...

I don't know whether thinking prehistoric me would likely still be depressed and anxious is comforting or not.

I really wish I could enjoy Smush but my brain just does not work that way Guess I'll continue hiding from the internet for a while

That I thought the yellow harder than the blue probably says everything about me and my education. 4x3.fun 30 June 2026 166 points • No mistakes 🌟🟪🟪 🌟🟨🟨 🌟🟦🟦 🌟🟩🟩

I knew as soon as I saw the subject line it would make me sad but I read it anyway and now I need to not curl up into a ball and cry because I have too much to do today. #vagueposting

Been cursing myself for years for not getting round to reading Gnomon, but maybe this is the right time to be reading it. "There is no god in the machine, just a very sophisticated card index. It should not pretend to experience."

Finally

Took myself to a bookshop to browse and it was good for about twenty minutes and then I felt sad because what's the point in buying more books I'll never get round to reading So now I'm buying ice cream because at least I'll eat that

I also just want this for me tbh

Just checked the weather and it looks like it’s a good day to pester @gilead.com to make #lenacapavir available to all: tbfighters.org/hiv/ #2Shots$40Everywhere #PeopleOverProfits

Gilead: Make Lenacapavir Accessible

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Feeling a little called out here

Was lying in bed, feeling very down, and there was a knock at the door. The postie with my last physical #P4A perk. It is exactly the book I hoped it would be.

Still alive btw. Just struggling to engage much online because *gestures broadly*

I know I say this a lot but "not much has changed, but they lived underwater" is one of the best sentences ever written in English.

Remembering this as I reflect on how I can be outraged on behalf of other people at this kind of attitude while simultaneously believing I should have grown out of my problems by now

Adele Taylor (pthagonal)@adeletaylor.bsky.social · 9mo ago

Oh thanks, random youtube commenter - I'd forgotten mental illness suddenly goes away in middle age.

Oh no...I did that thing where I replied without thinking and only noticed my notifications blowing up when someone replied I might go back to not looking at Bluesky.

I was excited about dancing today until Facebook reminded me one year ago I got to talk to my favourite unpaid intern of an online coffee company and in comparison everything else feels a bit dull

*logs back into Bluesky* *sees the phrase "scrotal expansion* *logs off again*

I never posted the end of this snippet I wrote. It was "Hoping I can stay ahead of it. Hoping that it will never catch up with me. Hoping that I will never be submerged in it — and knowing that one day I will be. " Anyway, that's why there's life insurance.

Adele Taylor (pthagonal)@adeletaylor.bsky.social · 8mo ago

There is a darkness at the edges of my life and as much as I try and pretend it isn't there, I can never completely ignore it. Sometimes I run from it; sometimes I turn and face it head on. But, most of the time, I just walk through the world carefully, trying not to rouse its attention.