crazysquid

@crazysquid.bsky.social

anxious weirdo that love gaming music and vtubers

idk im lonely rn and just kinda been doomscrolling and thinking all night isk if any of my friends even still use this dite its made bad decisions as well just like literaly every other place on the net its fucking depressing

obviously much worse going on in the world rn but games and talking to my friends and expressing myself on the net are the few distractions i have yet it feels like they are under constant threat its like i have no safe haven from the bullshit of this world

you know i sometimes wonder why im so angry all the time and i think off all the news this week and i get it im fucking sick and tired of the things im passionate about like games and the internet constantly being ruined threatend and fucked over by goverments greedy companys

love when my own fucking family literaly FORGETS the trauma i have and thanks im over reacting and guilt trips me trying to get me to contact them and doing this when im already in a bad mood pissed off about what a dystopian nightmare the world is now just FUCK! FUCK! FUCK !

idk just feel i need to point out the absurdity of it all like south park couldnt come up with half the surreal and dumb shit thats actualy happening amymore reality is a parody of itself

just got done reading an article about the "president" door dashing mcdonalds to the white house and then having a press conference where he tried to defend making an ai generated image of himself as jesus because hes mad at the pope...bro who ever writes the script for reality...wtf are you smokin

irrationaly upset about the playstation thing man im stuck with a ps4 no idea how long itll last wanted to save up for a 5 now i likely cant and cant save up for a pc becasue they are even worse i shouldnt have to have a doctors sallary to enjoy video games and if you say its a "luxary" fuck off

didnt sleep worth a fuck anxiety is attacking me again i guess theres no such thing as "doing better". for me huh?thought id recovered and was on the upswing after our dog died and i had time to greave nope this fuckass world has no goddamn mercy

ive barely slept the past few days im scared and extremely stressed im worried about my roomate cause thats her baby and just idk also fuck vets damn quacks as worthless as human doctors why does she seem worse now wtf!?

so yeah now our gog just keeps wandering around aimlessly getting stuck in furnature just acting like shes lost i can kinda get her to respond some tomes but shes eating and everything so lkke we have no idea wtf is wrong and the vet gave us meds but they dont seem to be helping so idk what to do

ik early 2000s nostalgia is big rn and i love it but come on the us going to war in the middle east? we dont need to re love EVERYTHING from the 2000s lol (this ia stupid and horrible and im coping through humot)

becoming increasingly worried im gonna be dead or in an asylum by the end of the year world events family bullshit and my own anxiety that latches on to every tiny little thing..im at my breaking point i just need things to get better soon man i feel like im going insane

im sorry if im worrying the few people who actualy see this stuff im mostly just venting this week has been very frustrating and my admitably low patience is being tested at every turn

some times i have this vision in my head of punching god in the face repeatably while screaming LEAVE ME ALONE STOP GIVING ME SHIT TO WORRY ABOUT LET ME LIVE IN PIECE...yeah im sure im not going inssne

doing better ik no one sees these or cares but it helps to vent im still pretty upset about everything but im gonna try to just chill today might even try to avoid social media/news idk feel like ive been close to a breaking point for awhile i hate whatbthe world has become