jace cavacini

@dysamoria.com

Desperately seeking a home, life-partner, & realistic optimism. The anti-intellectualism, anti-science, ignorance, antipathy, bigotry, corpo/authoritarian-bootlicking in my country terrifies me. Facts. Art. Music. Empathy. Love is a behavior not a feeling.

Since there’s dating app discourse: they’re scammy exploitative abuses of human loneliness. Also, here‘s me showing off (normally masked at socially-isolating, alone-amongst-people Planet Fitness outings b/c best friend’s cancer); I deleted OKCupid for being horrific and I have no dating profile:

Me. A 50-year-old man with short-cropped, side-buzzed, salt & pepper hair, wearing a brown shirt with “I Voted” sticker, sitting in the pretty grass & flowers at my best friend’s house in Philly a month or so ago. I’m kinda smiling; it takes effort to convey pleasantness when you’d rather jump in front of a freight train by this point, yet absolutely won’t do so because of the fear of surviving and having made life even worse. Me. A 50-year-old man with short-cropped, side-buzzed, salt & pepper hair, wearing a brown shirt with “I Voted” sticker, laying in the pretty grass & flowers at my best friend’s house in Philly a month or so ago, with my head propped up. I tried smiling, but didn’t make it this time; it takes effort to convey pleasantness when you’d rather jump in front of a freight train by this point, yet absolutely won’t do so because of the fear of surviving and having made life even worse. Me. A 50-year-old man with short-cropped, side-buzzed, salt & pepper hair, wearing a dark red shirt, sitting against an impressive tree at Bartrum’s Garden in Philly a month or so ago. I’m kinda smiling; it takes effort to convey pleasantness when you’d rather jump in front of a freight train by this point, yet absolutely won’t do so because of the fear of surviving and having made life even worse. Me. A 50-year-old man with short-cropped, side-buzzed, salt & pepper hair, wearing… OH MY GOD, it’s one of those fucking awful shirtless bathroom selfies!!! I’m so fucking sorry…. I’m kinda smiling; it takes effort to convey pleasantness when you’d rather jump in front of a freight train by this point, yet absolutely won’t do so because of the fear of surviving and having made life even worse.
jace cavacini@dysamoria.com · 4mo ago

She ❤️ the photo (fresh haircut) in iMessage; broke up w/me 6 days later 9 years ended from 2038 miles away I’ve no idea how to start again. 50. Poverty. PTSD. My only assets: a house; my personality. Stuck in a conservative, cigarette-addicted region where atheists, vegans, progressives, are rare

Unsolicited bathroom selfie. 50-years-old, salt&pepper short-haired man smiling.

Smiling because he was unknowingly mere days away from being made formally-single, after a year of separation from the woman he loves against all the odds, who has spent the last several years becoming progressively detached from him but not actually breaking up with him or making clear communication that she wanted to, nor how to bridge any gaps or progress the relationship.

Being loving and kind and patient with people who have long-term trauma issues seems like a good thing to do when you’re able to commit, but it’s not good for you if the other person never works on any of their traumas and leaves you with a refreshed repeat of your own traumas. I am demolished.

Humans AREN’T fundamentally bad! We’re fundamentally VULNERABLE to allowing toxic culture to form, creating & elevating pathological members; letting them trick us into granting them more than their fair share. We’re vulnerable to the manipulation of those who behave in ways the rest of us WOULDN’T.

The technofascists actively believing so-called “AI” is intelligent are ignorant and/or deluded, but all of them believe they’ll puppeteer it into fulfilling their wants: propping up their ideologies & sociopolitical dominance; magically doing all the hard intellectual labor for them, for free.

“I hope you get the help you need” is one of the worst fucking platitudes ever. I’ve been telling everyone what I NEED for decades. It’s not on offer. I’ve been mostly alone, trapped, and repeatedly abandoned. I’m 50 years old. Don’t fucking tell me it’ll get better unless you’re delivering proof.

Via sci-fi, I loved the idea of AI (real AI, not today’s fake BS grifter LLM shit). I developed anger at endless “evil AI” trope plots, and at the throwaway valuation of & bigotry against AI postulated in fiction. One day someone pointed out: the goal of AI is slavery. Now I oppose creating real AI.

Foz Meadows@fozmeadows.bsky.social · 3d ago

To me, the foundational tension of modern AI is this: If the stated goal is to create a human-level intelligence that can replace human workers but lacks human rights, then the real aspiration is slavery; but if human-level intelligence is impossible, then the industry's stated goal is a lie.

I love this thread about matter “transportation”. It is rational & logical, instead of fantastical & philosophical. I commented on it at the end, so read the whole thread… and then stay for the commentary, ha ha…

Orion Kidder@orionkidder.bsky.social · 2w ago

Okay, so: in-universe, the transporters are established technology. Everyone agrees that the "you" who was transported and the "you" in the second location are the same you. It works because the show(s and movies) tell us it works. But.

I fell for the Verge’s framing because actual BlueSky devs/owners have been awful to their own users, and because everything is just so fucking insanely exhausting anymore. Sharing in culpability for engaging & liking the rage posts 🫣🤦🏽‍♂️

Asher Elbein@asherelbein.bsky.social · 2w ago

Anyway, I think it's worth calling this out really explicitly: the Verge's social media team seemingly deliberately framed this in a way that would get people to fly off the handle, and that is a gross strategy that we shouldn't just wave off

It’s a huge social faux pas for men to express this, but fuck it: I‘m fucking lonely & seriously need to be held by a kind, loving, trustworthy woman, but my best friend is 215 miles away. Sudden intense pain felt momentarily life-threatening. FAR too much physical & emotional pain this year😭💀

I swear to fuck, Apple tests NOTHING. Had a timer on iPad (why iPad took the Siri command when iPhone was right there, too, I don’t know). A while later I called out “Siri, how’s the timer?” It said “There’s a timer with about 10 minutes left.” NO, fuckface! It was done, chiming almost inaudibly!!

everyone in this convo knows this already but the closest thing to universities changing to better reflect the full range of publics they serve is precisely what centrists have banned as woke and divisive

This shit with Taylor Farms is exactly what I’m talking about when I say you may say you “don’t do politics,“ but politics are more than happy to do you. The microbes political bribes got out the door and into your intestines don’t particularly care that you find it all beneath you.

The Republican Party is not our enemy because we intend to kill them, but because they intend to kill us--and already have killed a great many of us. Your friendship ought not to have survived that; it is to your great discredit that it did. Our anger, born of discouragement, is real and abiding.

Graham: a dead person deserving no kindness; he actively EARNED disrespect. There are others in power who’ve earned society’s animosity via their actions. Nobody is born to hate: Bigots are acculturated by family/peers to hate irrationally. Non-bigots rationally hate those who are harmful to society

Sanho Tree@sanho.bsky.social · last mo.

Whether this story is apocryphal or not, how we shit on Lindsay Graham today matters. Other Quislings who are still alive and enabling Trump need to know how they will be remembered if they don’t turn on him immediately. This is the legacy that awaits them all.

Anyone prog/left reading this live in Tucson AZ? How do you feel about it? I’ve lived near Allentown PA for 50 years. Few (now 0) friends, fewer romantic relationships. Dating sites/meetup make my region seem devoid of my kind of people. Deathly lonely. ExGF thinks I’d be better off in Tucson.

Every night I hope to die spontaneously in my sleep, so I don’t have to keep feeling my life go by without escape from this place and without any way to find a life partner. It’s too late; too far along. I don’t want to risk making it worse by trying to end it & failing, or hurting the few who care.

The loneliness & isolation is unbearable. I’m going to die alone. Every time I commit, they abandon me. No one commits. No one stays, despite telling me I’m handsome, intelligent, kind, and whatever else they tell me I am, to make it sound like I’ll find someone new, like they did. I am finished.

Fantastic thread of excerpts. This is what gives me a sliver of hope for future tech: a few tech-oriented people see this current shit for what it is, and I’m not alone being one of them. Spread the facts; stop worshipping tech & the tech executive class.

Kameron Hurley@kameronhurley.com · 2mo ago

"our economy is dominated by companies run by people who didn’t build and don’t participate in products or services they sell. They have little or no practical experience about what it was that made the company a success, and their “daring” initiatives usually boil down to “fire a bunch of people"

I’ve the “luck” of owning a house: shared walls; busy street; constantly inundated w/noise. Disability pays mortgage+ most bills (most; still getting other help b/c it’s not enough). Trauma associated w/this house. It is KILLING me. I want out so badly I’m considering living in a vehicle.

I've done things of merit, therefore I have value/worth. It's important to remember this about ourselves from time to time, especially after suffering painful losses. This is a gentle song I updated years ago, but never posted to my SoundCloud. Here it is. I'm proud of my work; I hope you enjoy it…🎧

dancing at the edge of the end of the world (April 28 2014) (updated April 4, 2022)

Re-upload of an old song turned into new song (updated lyrics/vocals). This was originally from an old 4-channel tracker module I did in the early 90s. It has been seriously upgraded. Bigger, better,

soundcloud.com

RFK Jr is a fucking ignorant lying motherfucking fuckface. Aside from baseball, in which I’ve no interest, I’ve done all that stuff. I also make music, jog, hike, write fiction & social commentary, and have actual relationships. I’m on disability b/c sociopaths like him drove me from the workforce.

Christopher Moore@theauthorguy.bsky.social · 2mo ago

Jeebus H. Christ this guy is stupid. How do you get to age 70 and not know anything about autism? What's worse, why would you put someone like this in charge of special ed? (In case you don't know, everything he says here is false.)

Science is built on a foundation of hundreds of papers. If the removal of a single paper from that foundation completely upsets your hypothesis, it often means you’re sciencing incorrectly. He has so little evidence for his claims that he has to cling to this paper and fight tooth and nail.

Lawrence H. Lash, Ph.D.
Wayne State University School of Medicine
Department of Pharmacology
540 East Canfield Avenue
Detroit, MI 48201 USA
Dear Dr. Lash:
I am writing to you regarding the editorial process concerning the removal of the article
"Vaccines and sudden infant death: An analysis of the VAERS database 1990-2019 and review of the medical literature," by Neil Z. Miller. As you may know, research integrity and academic freedom have been important issues to me for decades in my private career and continue to be important to me in government service. In the case of research conducted or supported by the Public Health Service, the Department of Health and Human Services' Office of Research Integrity promotes research integrity through education programs and oversees investigations of alleged research misconduct. Research integrity and academic freedom are vital to high-quality and trustworthy scientific investigation and debate.
For that reason, the recent decision to remove the article is of great interest to me. Retraction, and even removal, of seriously flawed publications is appropriate in certain cases. However, it should be accompanied by a transparent and full explanation of why such an action was carried out. For example, a guide on publication ethics, Wager et al (2009), states that the notice of retraction should "state the reason(s) for retraction."
The notice of removal you issued had only two sentences explaining the retraction. Given the high levels of public interest in vaccine safety and a history of both overt and obscure pressure against the study of some of these topics, such a brief notice of removal is woefully insufficient.
To assist me and my staff in understanding the editorial standards regarding retraction, removal, and research integrity being applied by Toxicology Reports, please provide the following information by June 25, 2026:
1. How the removal decision was reached: Please provide the full internal written analysis that justifie…methodological flaws in this article, the journal initiated an investigation." Please identify the experts who conducted this investigation and the conflicts of interest these experts may have.
3. Clarification of treatment of corroborating literature cited by Miller: The Miller paper cites an extensive literature on an association between sudden infant death syndrome (SIDS) and recent vaccinations, from 1933" to 2014". Did the experts involved in investigating the Miller article also investigate those cited papers?
4. Criteria "potential implications for medical practice": you cite "the potential implications for medical practice" as a reason for retraction. Can you please define the criteria by which a scientific paper's "potential implications for medical practice" are determined and considered for the purpose of retraction? Are they applied equivalently to papers with similar subject areas and hence, implications for medical practice- but with different conclusions?
5. Criteria for article removal versus retraction: Please explain why you opted for the removal of an article rather an expression of concern or retraction. Which specific guidelines on scientific integrity and publication ethics did you follow when deciding to remove the paper?
To rebuild the American public's trust in public health and medical science, full transparency regarding these decisions is essential. The public deserves to know how and if the scientific publishing industry is taking its duty to ensure research integrity seriously and ethically.
1 look forward to your prompt response.
Sincerely,
Platkamax
Robert F. Kennedy,

This whole thread, up to within hours ago, over days, is a feat of human compassion and benevolence. It’s what we should strive for—just, help something or someone else feel safe if they’re vulnerable. Nature is harsh and cruel and we somehow developed kindness to help make life worth living.

Petra Korlević@petrathepostdoc.bsky.social · 2mo ago

found a little buddy and brought her to a nice flower shrub, but why are her wings so mangled? :( #invertebrate

A feature of discernment is to know when NOT to allow someone to be on your side. For example: I think there’s legit discussion to be had about the physiological dependence & withdrawal impacts of psych drugs, but I reject any commentary from Scientologists by default because they’re anti-science.

Elizabeth Jacobs, PhD@elizabethjacobs.bsky.social · 2mo ago

I still see influencers and media pundits suggesting that those who are battling RFK Jr.’s anti-science activities should “find common ground” with MAHA, and specifically with MAHA moms. This thread is about why I refuse to do so, which boils down to this: they reject the scientific method.

There is FINALLY *scrollable* alt-text on this damnable website!!!! The static text field was stupid from day 1. Just like the lack of post editing was stupid from day 1. But they’ve their LLM & crypto obsessions to focus on…