Hesse Phillips

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🏳️‍🌈 Historical fiction | Queer history | Theatre history | Early modernist | USian in Spain. Debut novel LIGHTBORNE out now. Rep: Brianlangan.bsky.social. More at hessephillips.com

This is how close the fires came - the blackened earth ends maybe 15 feet up the hill from the boundary of our backyard. The trees closest to us are still green at the top but burnt halfway up the trunks. Everything above is burnt brown. There's nothing left. Row after row of dead, burnt trees.

Photo of the hill behind our backyard, an undeveloped lot with mainly oak trees growing on it. The ground the trees are standing in is burnt black all the way up the hill. In the foreground, some shrubs, a makeshift fence of chicken-wire and a set of stone steps mark the boundary of our backyard. The blackened earth ends maybe 15 feet up the hill from our fence.

there's plenty of restaurants in this town, but the owner of the sandwich shop downtown hates me, says he's gonna kill me, and has a sign up on the wall saying that 5 cents out of every sandwich order will go towards buying bullets to shoot me with.

Here I am at a nice little B&B near a dog beach while a place where our family was just starting to really build a life lies in ashes. Can't tell you how weird it is to be dreaming of towering infernos every night and waking up to sun and sand and happy puppies, like we're here on borrowed time.

It's looking extremely likely that the lovely little house in the mountains that our whole family has been renting together for the last two years is about to burn down tonight, and I feel horribly numb about it. Not just our house but possibly the whole village. The whole forest.

The view from a beauty-spot on our favorite walk in the woods, looking south towards the Tietar River Valley across rolling foothills and meadows. In the foreground, a horse and donkey are grazing in a field bordred by low stone walls, with low, cloud-like encina oaks shading the slope of the pasture. A sliver of vivid sunlight falls across the lap of the distant blue mountains. It is dusk. The forest is humming.

And we left our beds in the dark And we drove a cart to the hill And we buried the jar of ale in the bog And our small blades glittered in the dayspring And we tore dark squares, thick pages From the Book of Fire… —George Mackay Brown, “Peat Cutting” from Selected Poems: 1954–1992 #poem #poetry

George Mackay Brown
Peat Cutting

And we left our beds in the dark
And we drove a cart to the hill
And we buried the jar of ale in the bog
And our small blades glittered in the dayspring
And we tore dark squares, thick pages
From the Book of Fire
And we spread them wet on the heather
And horseflies, poisonous hooks,
Stuck in our arms
And we laid off our coats
And our blades sank deep into water
And the lord of the bog, the kestrel
Paced round the sun
And at noon we leaned on our tuskars
– The cold unburied jar
Touched, like a girl, a circle of burning mouths
And the boy found a wild bees’ comb
And his mouth was a sudden brightness
And the kestrel fell
And a lark flashed a needle across the west
And we spread a thousand peats
Between one summer star
And the black chaos of fire at the earth’s centre.