☆𝒱𝒾𝓃★ (MDNI)
@landmine-boy.bsky.social
Vin ☆ 22 ☆ He/Him ☆ Basic DNI ☆ @i-heart-head-gutz on tumblr ☆ shedsky + 988sky + other shit
gm moots, had another rough night but i came to a difficult realization that may be hard to hear the whole reason i migrated from tumblr to bluesky was to avoid what's happening now, the censorship of content related to EDs and SH. now that bluesky is suffering
GUYS WHAT HAPPENED I WAS BUSY ALL DAY WHY IS EVERYONE MAKING ALT ACCOUNTS AND TALKING ABOUT PROTECTING THEIR ACCOUNTS WTF
so funny story about what's been happening recently >hate my creative writing class for a variety of reasons which is ironic bc im a writer at heart >the prime of which being the double standard of my professor saying its ok to write darker things while my classmates EVISCERATE any poem that isn't
as soon as bsky adds priv accounts i'm definitely going to go followers only
its 10 days till spring break for me and usually that would be exciting bc of the break from school and it is but for me its bc i get to stay home and absolutely FUCK MYSELF UP in all the ways i want to without worrying about going to class the next day
man i just wanna fucking feel something so i know i'm alive
two realizations this morning: 1) if i attract the worst people (not you mooties mwah) abusers, groomers, anyone who thrives on the misery of others, then what does that say about me? 2) i thought my ED was putting me in the drivers seat in life but in reality it is now in the drivers seat and im
OH LOOK. THAT THING I SAID WAS GOING TO HAPPEN IS HAPPENING NOW. AND I FORGOT TO PUT MY WATCH BACK ON. FUCK MY ENTIRE LIFE.
☆𝒱𝒾𝓃★ (MDNI)@landmine-boy.bsky.social · 2y agoi want to go to bed so goddamn mcfucking bad rn but i know i can't bc if i go to bed before like 11-11:30pm i'll wake up at 2-4am and be awake until at LEAST 6am CURSE MY STUPID BRAIN
i’m so tired of food being such a big hurdle for me. every single day
i want to go to bed so goddamn mcfucking bad rn but i know i can't bc if i go to bed before like 11-11:30pm i'll wake up at 2-4am and be awake until at LEAST 6am CURSE MY STUPID BRAIN
the level of health anxiety i have on the daily is unnatural for someone who claims to be su!c!dal
ok to explain the bullshit ive been going through: last night i was like "god this ed is fucking stupid, it makes me hyperfocus on food when i should be focusing on actually making myself feel worse and therefore more valid, i should be chasing something that should actually kill/damage me in a
me this morning: today i'm going to eat intuitively and take the calories as they come me this evening: today i'm going to carve every square inch of fat off my body and burn it and bleed out and die
literally the only thing keeping me from cutting myself rn is the Tired Eepy (it is 6am, Hell Naw) but after i wake up again......
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every night for the past few days has been like "what if i fuck around and recovered from my ED" or "what if i fucked around and put my head through a noose" with no in between
shoutout to the ppl who have EDs purely for the destruction, i see you 😔 ✊
3ffy~shedsky@crestfallencals.bsky.social · 2y ago#edsky this ed is gonna kill me or make me kill myself. either way, that’s how it should be i suppose. we are one, intertwined
i just got that horrible feeling i get when i feel nauseous in public and i'm afraid i'm gonna have to leave bc I'm sick or i'm gonna puke on the floor......but i'm in my APARTMENT RN BRO NOBODY IS HERE?????
i feel so pathetic like this, rented the prince of egypt to kill some time while waiting for dinner and im thinking to myself "look at me, waiting for food as if my life revolves around it, craving it forever and always like a dog begs for treats, i have no actual hobbies so i replace them with
i only just bought him but im in love with him, he smells like lavender and i can microwave him to make him warm, now i too smell like lavender
update, the regret has set in! im safely in my hating food era again :3
☆𝒱𝒾𝓃★ (MDNI)@landmine-boy.bsky.social · 2y agodid smth i never thought id do again and had a cookiewich from insomnia cookies, it was so goddamn delicious and if i wasn't so dissociated from my own thoughts rn im sure the guilt would set in, now i gotta go home and make actual lunch and im SURE the guilt will kick in then 🫠
did smth i never thought id do again and had a cookiewich from insomnia cookies, it was so goddamn delicious and if i wasn't so dissociated from my own thoughts rn im sure the guilt would set in, now i gotta go home and make actual lunch and im SURE the guilt will kick in then 🫠
