it's gotten so little fucking support since it transferred. it never got advising as a transfer student until after its first semester started (wasn't allowed to schedule!), its had one advising appointment since then that was really unhelpful, since then been cancelled appts, missed emails.
the adhd and the anxiety and the mood disorder and the attachment issues and the possible autism STILL can't balance out how smoking hot it is
ok new resolution it's going to try to stop being emotionally exhausting for everyone around it
24 wasn't the easiest but wow turning 25 just feels fucking awful it can't even really bring itself to think positively about this one
Drove by a billboard for a casino with the most littlespace-ass tagline. "Come stay up past bedtime". Oh are we gonna watch a scary movie? Build a pillow fort and grope each other? Are there gonna be juice boxes?
ANTHROPIC: Our son loves humanity and for the low price of trillions and trillions of dollars will usher in an era of unprecedented peace and prosperity! OPENAI: Our horrible oafish son is hacking web sites without our permission. ANTHROPIC: (eyes narrowing) Our son is also evil
keeps having childhood memories come back to it for no apparent reason nothing bad just stuff it had no idea was still kicking around in here
hadleys infinite torment of slowly burning out in every class until it misses a few participation points and one weekly assignment and drops its projected average from a 95 to a 89
it gets worried about its learning speed dropping as it gets older but otoh it actually has the self discipline now to focus on what it wants to
watching ur girlfriend pull up ur jellyfin server to watch smthn feels so good
occasionally remembering its a bit bisexual is funny. like oh that's an option, no it doesn't think so, but cool!
its uncomfortable with being read and treated as a cis woman and it doesn't know if it should interpret that as being nonbinary or just some flavor of anxiety it needs to get over
its really glad its calc class is gonna be async it has learned at this point that it just does not fuck with irl math lectures
like clockwork it remembers to take its prog again and all it wants to do is snuggle ughh
be extremely subtle, even to the point of uselessness -sun tzu
MAD CITY MENACE@schizo.lol · 2w agoif you know yourself and know the enemy (yourself) you should fear the result of every minor inconvenience
all men can see the tactics whereby i lose, but what none can see is the strategy out of which failure is evolved -sun tzu
MAD CITY MENACE@schizo.lol · last wk.be extremely subtle, even to the point of uselessness -sun tzu
maybe if theyd gotten it on stimulants sooner it would have the capacity for basic mental math
like in retrospect it was very clearly hypomanic at the start of the month, irritable, higher energy. and now it is barely able to think or get out of bed
hadley@misassemblage.net · last wk.cant tell if its mood disorder is getting worse as it gets older or if its just more aware of it now
cant tell if its mood disorder is getting worse as it gets older or if its just more aware of it now
they gotta make a mood stabilizer or antipsychotic that doesn't make it exhausted and doesn't make its stimulants completely ineffective
