RoninQueen ๐ (and Orion ๐)
@roninqueen.bsky.social
Artist with stage 4 colon cancer. Bird thing. Childless cat lady. Overly wordy. I like sewing, games, playing bass, singing, giant robots and monster movies. Always searching for answers. 100% real human thoughts and work.
Just when you think they can't get any more despicable. Anyone wanna bet on when I'm gonna die?
Django Wexler@djangowexler.bsky.social ยท 6h agoSomehow things that would have been a background gag in a Verhoeven movie are now just real
I got a tower fan. I've wanted one for a while, been borrowing a friend's pedestal fan so I don't melt. Thanks to some creative budgeting I was able to finally get what I wanted. I set it up and it has an ambient temperature displayed. It says it's 81ยฐ in here. That's in my front room, with the AC.
...just realizing I am borderline anxious sitting here in this Walmart parking lot because there are so many people around the car. My friend is inside picking up some stuff on our way back from my appointment and I'm just like ๐ณ
They didn't even put my appointment in that I had today. I showed up for it and I'm a mystery. Surely they can see where I called in. I really wish my voice wasn't prone to just randomly disappearing too. I didn't even talk a lot yesterday or do anything that would've caused it to wear out.
Love waking up at quarter to five and then being awake for an hour for no reason Oh wait there's a reason, it's furry and orange.
Been laying here for two hours icing my shoulder which is still just absolutely screaming at me. This is the only time I watch reels or short form video; I'm in pain, may as well do something mindless to take my mind off of it. I have an appointment tomorrow, thankfully it's not till 1 PM.
Not feeling my best today. Stomach is a little messed up, shoulder is big mad, lower back is complaining from me just standing up for a little while, not even doing anything strenuous. It was hard to wake up this morning and I ended up falling back asleep waiting for my pain meds to kick in.
Gee thanks, buddy. I definitely needed cat help.
...got my food assistance box. Not only is it thawed out and unusable but at least one of the meals came open in the box and there's rice and shit all over the place. Man I love having to call a place and complain. ๐ก And not having food I'm supposed to have, that's awesome too.
I've been using these Hollister ostomy bags that I got for free through a charity and honestly I can see why they were free. I've gone through them fast, they leak very easily and luckily I've caught it in time when they do, but I had such a solid routine down with my old ones. They'd last a week!
Friendly pro-tip: "Foolish mortals" is a gender-neutral form of address
I just got done cleaning up Orion's messes, I didn't think about vacuuming till a little bit ago and I'm not gonna do it now. Tomorrow. Apartment is mostly clean otherwise! I'm pretty happy with it. Still dying of sweat, I think it's just gonna be an issue in the back till the fall.
Me: My sketchbook is pretty good-sized, I think I can just transfer this sketch to one of those canvases I have One of those canvases I have: *is WAY bigger than anticipated, rendering my preliminary sketch kinda useless*
Still no sign of my meal assistance box. Wondering if it's gonna be thawed out by the time I get it. FedEx doesn't do anything on Sundays so the tracking page says "waiting for status update" or some nonsense. I ordered some Italian food. Pretty glad I can do that right now.
Woke up with the crinkle ball being pushed gently into my hand. Orion woke me up at 5 to play as well, but that only lasted a little while and I got to go back to sleep. He is now being a sweet kitty. I think we may have a winner to combat Psycho Kitten Mayhem. ๐ธ
I managed to do a couple things. At least got the stuff put away in the kitchen and I cleared off my living room table. Doing the rest of my chores tomorrow will be easier now. I'm currently wearing out the cat. He has fetched his crinkle ball about 700 times and shows no signs of tiring.
My shoulder has been absolutely unbearable today. Like, to the point of tears bad. I've exhausted my ice packs and I took pain meds and all I can really do is lie here and hurt. This sucks. I have my MRI on it on Thursday, I am hoping they find what the fuck is going on because I hate this.
My meal assistance stuff was supposed to be here yesterday. Then it was "by 1 PM Saturday". It's still not even out for delivery. I only have today's meals left. ๐
I feel like garbage. My shoulder is killing me and my cat has been nuts all day and I am just out of patience and all I want to do is collapse into something soft and fuzzy and all I have is this bed and there's just too much on my mind right now and i feel like everything sucks and nothing is okay
We are making fetch happen. (He is fetching the crinkle ball)
What Pokรฉmon would you choose as your first partner that isn't a starter? Been on a real Shellos/Gastrodon kick lately.
Shellos Gastrodon
Alt: Eastern and Western Shellos
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๐ ABIGAILโงN๐ฎNK๐ @abigailnonk.bsky.social ยท 6d agoWhat Pokรฉmon would you choose as your first partner that isnโt a starter?
I feel so defeated. It really sucks to be flying high one day and then busted in the face by reality the next. I wish I didn't hurt. My MRI for my shoulder is in a week. Hopefully it finds something they can fix. I wish Orion was not having a jerk moment as well. It's been non-stop since 6:45.
Now is not the time for that, body. Even if you're being caused by something else, it's freaking me out and I don't like it and I don't even see my chemo doctor again till the 25th so just fucking chill okay? Please.
Went to bed at like 1:30... Been awake for an hour. I wanted to go back to sleep but that's not possible apparently. Stupid shoulder.
So I got paid today and not only do I not have to immediately get groceries because I have meals for another four days, but I was actually able to get myself some new basic shirts and some undies which I badly needed. And some snacks. ๐ I got Orion a whole pack of crinkle balls too!
I didn't even do that much yesterday but my back and my shoulder are yelling at me already today and have been since I got up. Gonna be a chill out day I guess. That's fine!
