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lv35🏳️‍⚧️∆+2017🔞🙅 • She/Her • It/Its • PNW • Living on Enceladus Station, as an eldritch fruit snack // no longer someone's housewife > banner - a photo i took > pfp - trans carina nebula + bleeding heart, made by me

-steps outside- ahh it looks like "gaia is giving me breathplay" season is starting > aqi is 172 ahh and she's.. extra.... frustrated.... this year

This idea, endemic to our culture, that you should settle for/latch on to the first someone who is safe and kind to you is how we end up in bad, controlling relationships instead of becoming a tribe of people who aid each other and extend our family bonds further than just our immediate area.

here we are coldly regarding each other like two ships flying almost the same but slightly different flags white knuckling the helm, unfurled "nine cannons, at the ready, girls!" the sea is still as glass, just bet: and then the moments pass, and yet we're so cordial when we make port.

a large number of people performing random acts of love would change the world forever if we would stop to try it if only for a moment but we want to deny it because we all can't hold it so if we come together we'll build ourselves a tower we'll do it brick by brick we'll smoke weed every hour

currently unhoused in #seattle, needing housing // 35, mtf, no alcohol/drugs, hrt since 2017, recently left a relationship. Not looking for a hand-out, i can pay monthly. I need access to a private or semi-private bathroom because of disability. If you know of safe folks with a room, msg me.

i wish i had someone to share this bed with who was kind and safe, who i trusted, who wanted me to be myself, who doesn't see me as a child or a tool to be used, who doesnt see me as man pretending, who doesnt see a used up whore when they look at me.

> be me > currently not paying attention to the world to focus on tasks > has been in a news free bubble for about 2 wk to focus > pokes head into news bubble Jesus fucking fuck what aaaaaaaaaa holy fucking shit? we did WHAT? ofc we did. oh. it's worse? *dial up modem sounds*— ✓ gif relevant

Subrote Futurama

Alt: the current state of American democracy in a gif... (futurama, the scene where professor Farnsworth says "to shreds you say" while somebody is explaining how someone was killed over the phone)

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be Ruby: diagnosis of narcolepsy, agoraphobia, ptsd, and failed back surgery. all of those things are real - and we are obviously quite neurodivergent somehow, killing it anyway. I can wander the streets and make friends with strangers. I make a new friend everywhere i go. I'm proud of myself.

I'm going to have a blast today writing poetry or something by myself. looking like a snack. for no reason other than that I can. 🩵