Zhu

@zhublue.bsky.social

35 | 18+ ONLY | I like to draw funny muscle shapes. #Zhu

Been happier having furry art as a back up rather than a main source of income. I still plan to be more consistent and get back to everyone patiently waiting for me this batch. I have around 5-6 pending comms I really want to reward my commissioners for. Thanks for all your guys support.

Getting more confident with needle punching and carving process. May look at offering commissions, I just need to figure out how.

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I also deal with being ignored poorly, to be treated like a nobody hurts the most. Replying on Bsky or DMing to get ghosted stings me the most. I’m okay with busy people, but unenthusiastic people are my counter. I can’t work off of that energy.

I I have a hard time processing the vibe of being semi two faced of like being mega friendly for a while, open, into turning into cold, silent, critical, angry. Having met a few people and witnessed that transformation in a friendship hurts me the most. I felt responsible when I wasn’t. It’s them.

I am extremely grateful for those around me lately to help me vent and open up about past sensitive feelings I lingered on to. I still go through “what if you did x you could have saved that relationship” Realizing a relationship is not stable if “x y z” were the only factors were holding it in.

It’s crazy to think how much of an impact someone can have. I think about certain people daily knowing they probably don’t think about me a single time and don’t want to. Rejection like that lingers for decades in me. Knowing I’m not wanted by people who are decent to others.