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@eliacugini.bsky.social

writer & end-stage PhD student. i work on literary culture, sex, queer life, child liberation, and anti-trans persecution. contributing writer @ Vashti, work @ Baffler, Dazed, Defector, &c. he/him. 📍 manchester / belfast

ok it is the three weeks that suck where i finish my full thesis draft. day 1 was yesterday. keeping track of stuff here so i don't become fully detached from reality

occasionally see someone going viral online who is like five degrees apart from me in the same polycule and it feels like when someone who was in your junior school class gets on the news

have regrettably determined from trip to brighton that i am most in my element in the club a girl described as ‘where to go if you want a camp time’

was out at the weekend with beautiful plus size woman who was feeling down on herself about her weight and we both cooed over an excellent fat seagull and i was like ‘so you’d let the gull be fat, but not the girl?’ and she looked at me like i’d shot her

there’s a really cool bit in édouard louis’s monique s’évade where he was like ‘i was gonna include in this book the exact costs of getting my mother away from her abusive partner but it kind of made the book unreadable and also looked like i was blaming her for how much it cost’

i have much respect my monogamous siblings in christ but you gotta learn to post about monogamy being better for you in a way that doesn’t sound like you’re coping and seething

have been reading some of a really fantastic trauma studies book from 1996 (one of the foundational texts for the field) that ALSO has the author self-disclose her entire field of personal data - ethnicity, sexuality, CSA history - at the start because she thinks that's the ethical thing to do lol

saw some nothing account say this re the platner stuff and it so neatly encapsulates the masculinist fantasy that stops people believing rape survivors. oh well i’d have responded instantly and the cops would have fully cooperated, and since she didn’t then it must not have been real!

Bild

working on a book-length project for the first time ever is making me insane. 'oh you can just cut that section and disseminate its material into the other sections' How. Fucking How

told gf and bf that i watched jackass 1 and they both brought up the same jackass skit unprompted despite neither knowing that it was from jackass 1 (golf course air horn). i am dating the pluribus hivemind

have loathed starmer since he was elected party leader and am feeling a mixture of elation and deep sadness for the things i hoped could happen after the tories collapsed, and were ruined by craven, soulless labour rightists

took the risk of going ‘i’m picking the film’ to discerning cinephile boyfriend and we both first watched the cook the thief his wife and her lover and i’m gonna be dining out on that for WEEKS