Zoe

@spinnyhorse.bsky.social

30s | Lancashire | She/Her

I’m really tired of being strong. I’ve been strong for 5 years. I’ve been strong while I was ignored by the Scottish NHS. I’ve been strong while I spent 2 years in limbo. And the second it looked like something good might happen the person who volunteered to help me functionally disappeared

Anyway I think I’m just gonna not bother getting close to anyone again. Nobody ever stays and it’s never mutual. I’m just not exciting. A husk going through the motions but essentially dead.

I mean I just think it’s weird that polycules are so often dominated by one person who gets to fuck everyone they want while insisting their favourites are off-limits to anyone else

Ed Sheeran does have fans; it’s just that as an empathetic thinking human you are incapable of conceptualising them, sort of like how you might look at some monkeys in a zoo and be unable to picture yourself picking lice from your friends

U ever think about how in “Who Shot Mr Burns” Smithers has that dream where Mr Burns is unharmed and has mutual affection for him and then he wakes up and discovers everything’s still horrid and how it’s actually such a cuttingly real depiction of how grief and unrequited longing can manifest

Is “Christ on a cracker” something people actually say or did I just invent it I’m kind of fond of invoking jeezy-boi on objects out of exasperation