pumpkin ‧⁺⭒♡
@relapse1325.bsky.social
♡ tboy, br. ♥︎ bpd, audhd, ocd, ed ♡ 20 something y/o ♥︎ please block, don't report ♡ always looking for mutuals! ♥︎ dni: fatphobes, minors, posts fatspo, not edsky ♡ sw: 62.40kg ♥︎ cw: 60kg ♡ cgw: 55kg ♥︎ ugw: 45kg
Love when I weigh less at the end of the day than I did at the start
need motivation? try 100 jumping jacks in front of the mirror, naked! youll want to starve to death :)
lately i've been really wanting to be 13 years again. i guess to cause i'm in my early twenties, feeling kinda lost, but also because i want to fuck my life and self destroy in different, mew ways. get into more trouble, start more fights... idk, i'm really fucked in the head
made a new tumblr account and immediate im right back in that mindset. ill do it. ill be strong. i can be strong and i can be disciplined, and dainty and elegant. i can smile sweetly and sip water or tea instead of stuffing my face like a hog. ill float. ill be so pretty
TRAUMA DUMP my therapist's daughter started messaging me when her mom showed her a tattoo i did on myself and she with this really weird talk "you can't tell anyone about us talking", "if my mom found Id get in trouble", "you're so pretty, special blablabla"
good news, i slept at my grandma's and for a few days last week and didn't gain weight!! cause she fed me like a ***
there's this personal trainer at my gym that kinda has like, a pathetic dog face. he looks kinda sad and pathetic and i love men like that, i kinda wanna make him into a dog, i don't even like him sexually, just wanna get him in his hands and knees
but can u guys imagine a gym with only people who have eds? I'd feel so much more welcomed and safe, less invalid... idk, just a bunch of people who are worried about themselves and supportive with each other
i am once again scared of how much I've gained, so it's fasting until Monday for me!!
not me crying because of what i ate today. and it wasn't even a binge, just normal eating my god, kill me
really really wanna start roller derby. i need something to get the aggressiveness flowing through me in a safe environment But i don't have money for the skates (╥﹏╥)
🧵harm reduction🧵 ──────୨ৎ────── I'm not in recovery but i try to be as safe as possible </3 feel free to add any tips + info of ur own! DNI anti recovery & fatphobes #edsky #caterpillarsky #edtwt
stayed under 400kcals today, tomorrow i can go to 900kcals let's see how much weight i can lose till my classes are back (august 10)
weighted myself & i'm finally under 60kg!! usually i only weight myself on fridays but i did it today cause i was worried of gaining something over the last weekend
feeling nauseous at the gym 😿 not going to finish my routine completely, just gonna do some abs exercises and cardio hope i don't throw up
If you want to be thin, you have to live the skinny life of healthy food and working out. Nothing should get in your way!